What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Changing4Best]

I've been kind of tired all day. Took several naps and that does not seem to help. It is too late in the day for another cup of coffee. So I feel undecided as to what to do to make myself feel more awake and better in general.

 

[Changing4Best]

Duplicate post, sorry!

 

[Teasel]

Feel awful, hurt, self hatred, pain

 

[intothelight]

Committed to change and hopeful for better.

 

[Teasel]

Frightened

 

[Tinyflame]

Frightened, worried, fearful and stressed-out to the point of tears. :cry: I suppose so bad I would resort to self-harm, but that wouldn't help anything so I don't.

 

[Changing4Best]

My hopes were dashed, but now I have hope again. It looks like I may very well be able to see a new T soon. I just will mostly likely have to change insurances to do so. It looks like she will be worth it though.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Wow. I thought navigating the various systems when mom was still alive was a trick....it's a whole new overwhelming and outrageously expensive scene now that she's passed.

Go figure...can't afford to live comfortably...can't afford to die comfortably.

f*cking systems...especially automated ones...and the humans who seem automated...and the mind f*ck legalease paperwork that goes along with it....pluck my every last nerve. If I didn't already feel like a damn incompetent idiot in several of those arenas, they seem to go out of their way to ensure I do before we're done...or is that just my self-defeating self-talk overriding my exhausted brain space. Hmmm... Many of them don't seem to care much for folks seeking specificity, that's for sure.

Not to mention all of the synthetic stank that can take me down in a heartbeat that I have to navigate and endure for long periods of time in the various offices and on the people I have to share spaces with and such. Damn sure can't do my calming breathing exercises while swimming in a stinky sea of tox-sick-city. May this canary in the coal mine of life manage to not get fully plucked as we continue to figure things out and get shit done.

Welcome, Spring. I sure have missed you. I think I'll go hug a tree now...or perhaps the whole damn forest...and apologize for the mountain of papers we must go through.

 

[Ronin]

Calm.

Just need to remember something about passing storms, & one continent is not everything, and... f*ckit, should explore Australia & NZ, no kiwis let me down, yet.

 

[Rani G2]

Exhausted, but a doable kind of a exhaustion.... unfunctional but finding gateaways in the mind. Maybe googling writers who committed suicide isn’t appropriate reading material.

 

[zaniara]

Greatefulness.
Shame. Grief. Pain. .

 

[Changing4Best]

Some kind of grief. There's been a rift in my family for years and it just got bigger. SIGH....