What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Iam]

Better than yesterday, which was better than the day before. Definitely feel under spiritual attack. Getting hit on every side it seems. I used the HALT skill my T taught me and it helped. I hate how the thoughts of suicide automatically pop up when I am struggling, when I feel attacked. Had to remind myself that the feelings would go away and I am past them for today. So I guess I feel......

Relieved
Encouraged
Stronger

 

[KP the nut]

Proud, I've just done another community car drive.

Mixed up, feeling numb

 

[The Albatross]

Cherryblossom and Jade... acknowledge where you're at and what you're feeling... but then let it go. No good comes from staying there. We had an old joke on a recovery forum where we were all "black sheep"... but we found "a herd" and could share a sense of belonging. When I get in a tough place, my instinct now is to get into the middle of the herd of black sheep so that the predatory psyche I have won't isolate and injure or kill me. All y'all (of you all) are my herd... and I'll cover and protect you until you can move on on your own legs.

 

[Toria]

Sad and a bit lonely.

Went for a nice walk in to town, had a cup of coffee, got dog food. Stopped to look in the estate agent's window on the way home and ended up being shouted at in public (again) by OH because I changed my mind about going in to look around.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Reeling from yesterdays therapy. Having a rough time. Suppose to reach out to people and do something fun this weekend as part of my homework. Don't think I can do that. Don't know what to do and don't feel very much like I can be around people and pretend I am okay. I know it is suppose to distract me, just can't bring myself to go there. Not doing so good today. Maybe tomorrow I won't feel so run over the coals and raw. I can hope.

 

[KP the nut]

Not doing so good today. Maybe tomorrow I won't feel so run over the coals and raw. I can hope.

(((PH)))
You are in the early stages of grieving, please be kind to yourself. Can you be with anyone with whom you don't have to be OK, with whom you can be yourself and they understand your loss and what is happening?

I wish I were with you, I would cry with you, take you walking and maybe collect or plant something which you can watch grow.

Reaching out to you and linking arms
KP

 

[Marie E.]

Feeling more secure, yet having my bit of downfalls.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

(((PH)))
I wish I were with you, I would cry with you, take you walking and maybe collect or plant something which you can watch grow.

Thank you KP...really means a lot to me. Needed that today!

 

[alixipain]

{{{{{CB}}}}} {{{{{JB}}}}} {{{{{{EVERY1}}}}}

CB I go through it on the drop of a pin, takes 3 days to recover to somewhat normal. I go for walks at any lake I can, take pictures with my cell and send them to my e-mail. If I get to a specific point that I cant take it anymore I run my fingernail over a scar, the pain numbs my mind out. Sometimes it doesn't work I rub a knot that is on my ribs I go away from here!

I dont need a device to cause myself injury, already have done the deed, the scars remind me of it.
Other ways I pull myself through: I write down how I feel via a poem then post it in a blog.
I sit hidin in the woods and cry till I can't.
I go out to the lake and pitch plates.
I take paintings I treasure and use a razor knife on them cutting them to sheds.
I take vaces and sometimes a radio out and use a hammer on them (Sometimes calls for big 20 pound rock crusher sledge hammer to get extreme anger out).
Sometimes I draw my anger on a canvus and use everything on it hammer, and cut it up.
I call 211
I play pc games
I lay in the bathtub of hot water till the cold water wakes me or my skin hurts from the water satuation.
I stay awake till I crashout

 

[Abstract]

((CherryBlossom)), please feel better. It's a horrible place to be.

I am starting to thaw out of numbness and reconnect after last weeks t session.
Am in self hatred/self destructive mode.
Feel trapped and hopeless.
Frightened and triggered in general.
Terrified to go back to t in a couple of days time. Can't see a way out.
Edgy itchy and irritable!

Not a happy camper.

 

[Abrasky]

Cherryblossom. Sending you hugs. I am hoping for lots of sunshine that you deserve tommorrow.
I am feeling exhausted from getting a new memory today probably the hundreth thislast 12 months : (exhausting as it is like they fight to not get out.) 10 last year.
I feel exhausted from being a parent today
I feel guilty as I could be a better person not so hateful sometimes
I feel like my head is screwed on upside down
tommorrow will be better.

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Exhausted.
In pain.
Grieving.
Despair.
Sick.
I'm stunned, puny, insignificant, overwhelmed, meaningless...
Feeling crushed by the pain and suffering, tragedies and losses being suffered by millions around the world.