What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Weapon]

Alone
Tired
Stressed
Broken
Angry

 

[The Albatross]

Bone crushing frustration... but it's evening, and the sun went down. I'll try again tomorrow.
(tell me why I wanted reintegrate again...???? People are MESSY.)

I have that voice in my head from the kid in that movie, The 6th Sense... but instead of "I see dead people"... my voice is saying "I see sick people. I see sick people". ACK In AA they said that when you point the finger, you've got four pointing back at yourself... that means today... I was "the sick person". Doh. :O_o:

 

[Iam]

Anxious and scare about tomorrows EMDR session. We will be targeting when I was raped at knife point when I was 7. Last time I approached this I dissociated for quite awhile and became suicidal. This time it will be with my trauma T though and she knows how to bring me back and calm me down. We've done a lot of prep work in grounding, being present and containerizing so I should be ok.....but still.......I'm scared. Scared of how I will feel, scared of what I might remember. Yet I want to remember and deal with it. I have found doing the EMDR on other traumas......some on long term abuse....to be incredibly freeing. I am hoping that will be true this time.

 

[caliaviator]

Initially I felt extremely angry because I confronted my grandfather for the first time in 8 years, but now that I controlled the situation it feels like I can conquer anything that comes my way. I still feel a great deal of hatred and anger, but the important thing is that I'm able to control it by being aware of my anger, and making myself relax. I feel like I am in control, and the lion that once terrorized me no longer has any power over me. A REALLY good feeling.

I did it with the help of my family; they pretty much were able to help things from getting out of hand.

 

[Ron]

I am feeling pretty good but for some reason I am wrestling with some anxiety. I let it do its thing and I try to ignore it. It's not easy but I should be fine. I am getting good at keeping calm. If it gets worse, I will see my counsellor.

 

[alixipain]

Today burning up from within. 3 cold baths and still feel as through my skin is on fire.
Fear anxiety peeked heart rate when I saw a envelop from the blood institute (I donated blood a while back). My mind wondered what deceases I have? Opened it to find read out, Blood pressure 119/75 Optimal 120/80, Chol T 172 Optimal <=200. Heart stopped racing.

 

[The Albatross]

I feel reluctant.
I feel dissatisfied.
I feel frustrated.
I feel resigned.

I think that it's only natural to feel reluctant because of the tough day yesterday.
I think that I fell short of what I wanted to accomplish and that happens at times. I can try again today.
I think that it is time to stop feeling frustrated and turn my thoughts back to the present and what I can do today to feel differently.
I think that I am being a bit overdramatic when I say this, because I am not powerless, I am an adult and I can make different choices.

 

[amethist]

Resentful. Abandoned. Ignored. Like I am the enemy.

Abused and wasted my breath for the last 2 days.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel proud I've achieved another week at work - OK, phased return so only Mon, Wed and Fri but I did it.

Proud I stayed calm ish at what would have been a huge trigger - a major incident outside work with police, fire service and ambulance in attendance, I heard the sirens from the office and used lemon oil to breathe through it. Then when I left work and was driving, I saw all the vehicles with blue lights flashing, I just kept focusing and telling myself I was safe. Slightly anxious as I write that, tight in my chest but OK.

So pleased it is the weekend AND I've been paid :D

 

[shadowchaser]

tierd
foggy
disconnected
dizzy

 

[KP the nut]

Mellow and tired after drinking champagne in the garden.
Time for bed said Zeberdee (for those of you who know and love The Magic Roundabout)
I feel like Dylan (for those of you who know and love The Magic Roundabout) :roflmao:

 

[Iam]

Tired but ok
Proud of myself for making it thru my EMDR session without too much trouble today.
Frustrated that we weren't able to completely process the incident.