What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Incendiu]

I have felt irritated and understanding at the same time. Todays session with my T was hitting some triggers as I had to tell a litle about my traumas for the apply to transfer me to the clinic were they have EMDR( we have never brought the traumas up as I have not felt ready for it until now.) I had almost forgotten how jumpy I used to be around people...today I got a wakeup call. So I have spent all the day from the T-session ended till now out with people around me just to not let that win over me and grow stronger. I will not let that happen. Still get flashes...but I put them aside...I'm home alone...bf just left with the band I have to skip or I probably would have a brakedown by the stress to learn new stuff to play and I am so exhausted in my body and sort of in my mind.

But I feel calm to be by my self...demanded him to go and not stay home even if he asked if he sould stay and not go. I feel I need some time by my self and focus on the goal with this and do something I like...draw, read...some music. Just me and the cats.

I feel confident , today I got a proof that I can sort out feelings when talking directly to another person and make a decision not to let them control me like they used...I sure have a long way to go but this this is a major step for me.

 

[CraftyCath]

I have emotions flying all over the place today.
I feel:
Numb
Angry
Happy
Sad
Pressured
Nurvous
Hypervigilant
And I can go from crazy horny to clinically depressed in a matter of minutes! (True)

 

[Lionheart]

I feel like I am in need of a female companion; someone to smoke my stuff, drink my wine, and help me to chase my blues away. lol :p
But seriously, I am a little bit lonely, but all in all I feel well rested and in control of my ptsd symptoms.

Something else I feel is sacred, ....*(not scared), and I don't know how else to explain that. I suppose I feel like I have returned to a more innocent aspect of my childhood, when I felt I was a part of the beauty of all creation...I guess that is what I feel; a sense of belonging to a higher power and destiny.....(if that makes any sense).:confused: I imagine it is inner peace that I am feeling...so hard to put words to this feeling.....perhaps, a return to innocence is what I am feeling. hahaha I should add that I am a little confused too. :whistling:

 

[KP the nut]

I feel like I am in need of a female companion; someone to smoke my stuff, drink my wine, and help me to chase my blues away.

Haha, if there is wine to be drunk, KP is the girl. Great company, very dodgy sense of humour and at only the cost of an airline ticket to where ever excellent value ;).

Not sure about the smoking stuff :rolleyes:, I've never smoked anything - oh my but that halo is still in place :roflmao:.

Seriously Lion, if you need to chat I am here.

((HUGE HUGS))

 

[Lionheart]

KP,
I wish I had the money for an airline ticket, I would share my wine with you without hesitation. I absolutely adore your sense of humor. :) You have made me feel a lot less lonely than I was feeling just moments ago and I greatly appreciate that.

I am grateful that you are there for me to talk with if I need to!!! It means the world to me to have a friend who is understanding and besides, having a sense of good humor really goes a long way when you have to deal with someone as silly as I am. :laugh:

I hope you have a beautiful day,
((HUGE HUGS)),
Lionheart

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Anxious for the next step of life! Bring it on!

 

[Deleted member 6617]

A little scared. Stepping out of my comfort zone a little each day.

Good for you for stepping out....fear is a natural response. Hang in there and stick to your new found determination. Hugs my friend!

 

[nie]

I feel angry and agitated. I wish that I had a more supportive work environment.

 

[Queen Boudica]

I hate myself. I really wish I was dead now. I just don't know what to believe anymore.

 

[Lionheart]

(((Lizio)))

 

[KP the nut]

having a sense of good humor really goes a long way when you have to deal with someone as silly as I am.

((HUGS)) and you are never silly, no-one here is, not in my eyes anyway.

Major catastrophe here - we are out of wine :eek::roflmao:.

 

[KP the nut]

I hate myself. I really wish I was dead now.

Well, I don't hate you and I sure am glad you are with us
((HUGS))