What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[LilacFaerie]

I feel lost
I feel cheated
I feel anger
I feel despondent
I feel afraid

I don't feel nurtured
I don't feel understood
I don't feel hopeful

<Letter I's capitalized by Amethist>

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I feel worried.
There was a typhoon in the Philippines. My son is visiting there, not the island that got the worst. Do NOT like him being that far away. Must get a passport in the next few months. It might make me feel better.

 

[KP the nut]

There was a typhoon in the Philippines. My son is visiting there.

(((Angel and son)))

No matter how old or independant, they are still our children.

Love to you both

 

[AngelaMarie]

Frustrated, alone, sleepless and hurt. Why does the inappropriate, addict behavior of my now ex spouse still hurt, still fell like personal rejection? I have nothing at all to do with him anymore, yet when I inadvertently find out about his warped behavior it is still so painful. When the pain finally subsides the depression sets in.:(

(((hug))) I don't know why we feel the way we do. Is it because we feel like we should have been able to fix it? Is it because we feel like because we bonded with them we are like them? I feel the same everytime my ex does this. I wonder sometimes if it is because he seems to get by with his lies and I am paying for it in pain. I do not know why, but I do know how you feel.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel calmer. I feel tired - well it is 20 to midnight, so that is not rocket science.

I feel blessed that in England we are having an Indian summer and tonight it was warm enough for H and I to sit out and watch the stars and the bats appearing.

I feel I must go to bed as I have work in the morning :sleep:

 

[Rob_Dog19]

Crabby and irritable. And mentally sore.

 

[jo may]

Had a horrible flashback this afternoon. I never saw it coming. It was one of my worst ever. Seemed like it lasted forever---I tried everything to get out of it but nothing worked. Afterwards it took me a good 4 hours to get even moderately grounded. I journaled about it and know I should share it with my therapist but it was a flashback to something we haven't discussed but she definitely suspects. I am really not ready to go down this road with her. I already have way, way too much on my plate to deal with.
I wonder if I am vulnerable to worse flashbacks these days since last Monday was the 1 year anniversary of my father's death (unrelated to my trauma) and the day after tomorrow is his birthday.:( This has been a VERY difficult week.
Now I am so on edge and dreading go in my bedroom again (where I had the flashback). My daughter walked across the hardwood floor and it made a little "creak"....I had to scrape myself off of the ceiling:mad:

I really feel for you that does not sound good, we all have bad days which can lead to weeks.
But we cope because we have too, to some degree try and get on with our lifes.

I have dreams I hate sleep so I get where your coming from with this.

My day started well but got worse as I had I horrid dreams and now i'm on hyper arlet.

(((hugs)))
JM

 

[jo may]

I felt fine this morning.

Than I had to take my youngest to hospital for a check up. they were running late.
So I started getting annoyed and fed up.

I got home kids had destoried my bedroom (safe place)so I felt mad and hurt.
I fell asleep by mistake and had a horrid dreams.

NOW
I feel worried,
I feel scared,
I feel hot,
Than cold,
I feel I don't trust anyone,
I feel panicked,
I feel like I can't sleep in case someone try's too hurt my babies.

All in all SCARED:(

 

[LawPhotos]

(((hug))) I feel the same everytime my ex does this. I wonder sometimes if it is because he seems to get by with his lies and I am paying for it in pain. I do not know why, but I do know how you feel.

Wow, AngelaMarie, I can tell that you really get this. Just when I thought I was alone on this one. I'm not sure that my T even gets this. I think you are closest with "he seems to get by with his lies and I am paying for it....". While he goes off traveling around the world on "sex tours" spending thousands of dollars I am here clinging to life with our three kids, including my profoundly handicapped son who requires 24 hour care. Ex has never exercised visitation once so I have them 24/7 365 days. He doesn't even see them--just walked away from them. I barely scrape by having yet to receive a dime from my divorce as everything that is mine remains tied up in red tape. He has access to all of his.

But you know there is something more to this pain.....like deep excrutiating pain.....like intense rejection....maybe that he chose that over me?

It hurts so badly and I can't figure it out. I hate this

How could this too really have happened in my life? Didn't I already have enough?

 

[LawPhotos]

Thanks, jo may

 

[bluemoon]

I still can't believe that there are others.....(yes, you).... like me?...WTF?

 

[KP the nut]

I feel proud I am managing my job. I've even been let loose answering the phone and making bookings :eek:.

I feel tired, I feel as if I could curl up and give in, but I will not allow that.

I will continue to move forward.