What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[goingonhope]

I'm feeling discouraged and overwhelmed with having to isolate one priority (from many priorities) and seek to accomplish it, prior to or following, yet not simultaneous with. (lol)

The whole picture of certain reality (mine and others) is Overwhelming! I continue to feel so much pressure, therefore continuing to be misplaced from most ability to be sociable, as well as, able to provide myself with much self-care. This continues to isolate and frustrate me!

I feel anxiously swamped yet must continue forward (baby-steps) in one direction at a time and in such a way that I do not overload, get sick or shut down for any length of real time.

I feel grateful to share in a place (this forum) where I can voice how I feel and not in return be responded to in some irrational, upsetting or degrading manner.

I feel grateful that I have this moment to be here.

I feel grateful that I can again think far clearer, more direct and simpler then while in that obnoxiously dazed, blank, entirely too unfocused and asleep state of mind which left me feeling helpless, powerless and punished.

I feel grateful for Doctors that continue along alert, present and open-minded responsibly at their work. And, I feel grateful to such Doctors whom move forward into their next year of service while keeping updated and continuing to educate themself. They "sharpen the saw" so to speak and therefore are at far less greater risk of becoming near useless.

Apparently, I am still aware of those Doctors that are not, and do not and as a result I still feel feelings of resentment and disgust.

I feel grateful to be currently and generally able to think, feel, do and accomplish!

 

[KP the nut]

((((HUGS)))) to all those feeling blah.

I don't know how I'm feeling today. I'm not on the massive high but I'm not triggered or in a dip either. Today I am just here and that is OK.

I feel physically and mentally tired, but content as well.

 

[PepperAnne]

I feel broken and unfixable. Like a vase that has been shattered and glued back together. It looks ok on the outside, but it leaks. I have the feels of shame, depression, helplessness, worthlessness, sadness, anger, anxiety and useless, coming up from my "Alters". Having Dissociative Identity Disorder makes me feel ALONE, which is sort of funny considering, I'm never alone.

Today I feel ashamed to be me.

 

[revelry]

un-balanced.
I feel effective in helping others get to a better places, but in-effective in making or forcing changes in my own life that will bring happiness.

 

[Sheer Force of Will]

I feel ashamed of myself, because I know I am falling back into bad, dangerous habits, and I feel like I should be better than that, so I am punishing myself and telling myself I should be ashamed.

 

[Wordgirl]

I feel ashamed of myself, because I know I am falling back into bad, dangerous habits, and I feel like I should be better than that, so I am punishing myself and telling myself I should be ashamed.

We're here because we have ptsd - people in the world who don't have this condition have no idea the tremendous amount of strength it takes us, (may I speak for us as a group?) to rise above the constant pain just to live in the world. Please don't punish yourself, Sheer Force of Will, and try not to feel ashamed. Have you spoken to a therapist? You might want to seek out someone who is qualified to help you deal with the urge to self-destruct. That's what I would do. You are worth it, you are worth comforting. xoxo

 

[Bubba]

Anxious yet empowered. Just sent an email to my husband letting him know that I know he is pursuing other women on dating sites. I told him it's over. He can file for divorce. I never want to lay eyes on him again. Feels good - just waiting now for some kind of backlash. I never know what's going to come.

 

[Froggie]

Standing by you ((((Bubba))))

 

[Srain]

((((((((((((Hugs to those that are struggling))))))))))))
And a HUGE thank you for all those that encourage, share, and continue to be strong-holds in this forum, I am so grateful there are no words.

I feel achy and tired but still able to keep moving. My night was rough, waking with pounding headaches but those eased off as soon as I got up and outside this time. I can see how my furbabies are interacting with me so differently, happy and carefree :) I am actually looking forward to my trip out West instead of thinking how my Son will take news that I am never coming to see him again. Breathing is so much easier this past couple days, how does that happen???

Peace and strength,
Rain

 

[Sheer Force of Will]

I feel like a VIKING! I have conquered my bully of a professor and it feels like JUSTICE.

 

[intothelight]

Like a few wires a loose. I am relatively OK one minute and then short circuited the next. I guess it is just going to be a battle the next few days to maintain.

 

[heather q]

Fantastic, I jumped a few hurdles, I am shaking, I feel like crying and I feel sick, it is so uncomfortable. It was good for a moment, but I'm back now, at my normal comfort level, being wrong for standing up for myself.

I let myself through to the other side, at least for a moment. It feels odd, uncomfortable and painful and fantastic, a bit of a breakthrough maybe.