What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Spiderallis]

Still tired after a two-hour marathon therapy session yesterday, but that was the most helpful couple hours I've ever had. I can see myself in a way that makes sense, that feels awesome.

 

[Chincho]

Tired after my T session. I have a huge headache.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am taking a break from getting me into a ceramic class. I am back to square one. Waiting for my husband to calm down and not be so stressed. Today is another ok day. I am happy about that. Hugs for anyone who needs one.

I will try again later on. Waiting for my daughter to call me back. I need to talk to her.

 

[Jen93]

I feel helpless, hopeless, sad, and I'm a horrible child. Apparently my teacher looked at me (one of my friends pointed me to my notecards when I started glancing around the room and whispering "I don't know where I am." ) I keep spacing out. I'm trying EVERYTHING.

I think this course has broken me. I think I've been retraumatized and I have no one to blame but myself.

I should just go rot in a hole- no, not even a hole, but a very deep mud puddle. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

The sick feeling is easing off and the person before me would NEVER say or do such horrid things to me. After so many years I still have to reboot that thought. :(

((((Sweet Rain))))), truer words were never spoken! Xoxoxox.

((((Dear Jen, All who need a hug)))))

 

[Tinyflame]

Well I went to eat but someone is passed out in the kitchen.
So think I'll wait :( . Something about "sleeping giants..".

 

[LawPhotos]

Shame, embarrassment,fear and so very, very tired.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((LawPhotos))))

Where do all these feelings come from, I wonder?
I mean, I know- the past, but why, 'why now', why so often?
I realize triggers and such. But gee, I'm surrounded by 'normal' (non-ptsd) people, and they act crazier or more bizarre than I do. :(

I think I feel a deep loneliness, or hopelessness, that nothing could ever fill. Unsafe, all the time. Un-reachable. Hopeless.
Some is prudent fear, the rest engulfs me.
Maybe it's just the 'night time talking'. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

Mind you, for quite some time I've had it drilled into my head to not say a word, and that definitely no one would agree to hear it. Not even want to hear it, (but) that they wouldn't tolerate it.
So that makes me feel, yikes, Idk? :unsure: :(

 

[Elizabeth-Ann]

Nadia, I hope you get an answer soon! Congratulations for writing everything down! That is really a huge accomplishment! I am struggeling with it still, but you inspire me to keep on trying! Thank you!

 

[Srain]

I think I feel a deep loneliness, or hopelessness, that nothing could ever fill. Unsafe, all the time. Un-reachable. Hopeless.
Some is prudent fear, the rest engulfs me.
Maybe it's just the 'night time talking'. :(

(((((((((((((((Junebug)))))))))))))))
My days can feel like your nights, I'm not sure if that can be filled but I do know I am listening and want to hear, just as many here are.

The words aren't there for me today. It's an internal battle to take care of myself.

 

[Elizabeth-Ann]

This is not a good day. I feel depressed, anxious and so lonley. I can nearly smell the danger that surrounds me and everyone seems like an ennemy. I would like to hide myself in my room, lock my door and cry my lonlyness in my pillow for there is no one to understand, console and protect me. If only some one could take me in his/her arms, saying: it is going to be all right!

I cannot hide because I have to work. So I am not hiding myself but my feelings, working as a fool, smiling and being there for everyone, till I will break down this evening in physical and emotional fatigue - as so often. Is there any one out there understanding me?