What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[99Phoenix99]

Okay, um, on a bit of rollercoaster tonight.

So...miserable, guilty and really, really lonely.

I need to stop whinging like this. I'm sorry.

I feel for you Privateer. I'm having one of those days today too. I've been dissociating on and off all day, and when I'm not I'm completely numb, then things are going ok and I think I'm doing alright, then I just break down again not 30 min ago...

It's a rough night I guess... just know you're not alone.

 

[Privateer]

Thanks. I just get a bit down on the night watches at the best of times and with today being what it is...

Thank you.

 

[99Phoenix99]

@ Pencil, Gizmo, & Ms Spock, thanks for all of your support

 

[Deleted member 12723]

You are welcome

 

[ms spock]

I've really let them down this year, haven't I?

No I don't think so.

I glad you found someone to talk and connect to!

 

[ms spock]

Well I have got my music on and I am doing things that I need to do.

I feel so vulnerable today. I am aware of my neediness. I am aware of my desire for approval. Today was not a day to put myself out there. Ah well.


I am going to go offline and do what needs to be done now.

 

[99Phoenix99]

To continue the rollercoaster theme today.

I just had a good moment with my mother. I ACTUALLY told her what had happened yesterday with my friend's mother. How I was still upset about it. Which was a big step for me because I normally don't talk about my problems. I was anxious during the whole conversation but I managed to do it nonetheless. So that was really good I feel a bit proud? Relieved?

Despite that I'm still having flashbacks though. So I'm really off kilter still.

 

[goingonhope]

I feel excessively spaced and dense tonight and therefore frustrated.

I did start a new medication this afternoon (cymbalta) and it has me experiencing the chief symptom that lifted after being prescribed valproic acid for concerns of seizures.

Concerned.

 

[goingonhope]

I have to say that there is some things about sudden shifting changes and degrees of slowed-thinking and spaciness, onsets of blankness, confusion, memory loss and traps that truly leaves me feeling sometimes numbed, ...sometimes terrorfied.

 

[99Phoenix99]

I did start a new medication this afternoon (cymbalta)
Concerned.

GoingonHope, I would say to make sure you keep a close eye on how you're feeling. Starting a new med is always tricky. If after a few days you feel like it's not changed or it's getting worse contact your doctor because that med may actually be exacerbating instead of helping.

 

[Nadege]

Sometimes my body feels very tense, I do not want to see or talk to anybody, I don't feel comfortable no matter what position I take. Today was one of those days. I helped myself by stretching exercises.

 

[goingonhope]

The doctor gave me samples until our next appointment. Because, I do not trust that I can necessarily keep a close eye on what I'm experiencing, nor keep track of notes, I'm going to immediately discontinue it's use until perhaps I next see neurol. vs. psych.

I will choose the pain over this. Though I can't comment what I read earlier on cymbalta and interactions with other medications and conditions, it did suggest what you've said Phoenix99, ....exacerbation.

Thank you for your comment, concern and much welcomed support and a reminder.