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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I'm feeling cared for and pampered. I got invited for midday Christmas meal to my pastor and his wife's house (and their two kids and another widow like myself). We laughed, we ate and ate... had to take a break before dessert! Then I got a ride home (also had a ride there). Door to door service by my pastor himself! I hope I didn't overstay my welcome, because pastor started to seem a bit edgy, so I finally asked if he wanted me to go home then. He said that it would probably be a good idea. Then I thought about good ol' "Southern Hospitality" and I really am not sure if I'm supposed to ask to go home or if they are supposed to let me decide. HMMmmm... I think from now on I should err on the side of caution, but how to judge when I'm overstaying my welcome, I guess when he seems to start to seem edgy. Like I said, I hope it is not before he gets edgy.

The other guest was leaving earlier and I asked him if he'd prefer that I get a ride home with her and he said,"No, this is a round trip service we give, it's OK." or words to that effect. I need to read up on "Southern Hospitality" and see what exactly it refers to! I don't know....
 
Comfort, some real peace and joy.

Some real aggravation, yet calmness, self-control and inspiration.

Relaxed, interested, excited, hopeful, empowered, curious, happiness and .....just now - annoyed and disappointed.

The just now (annoyed and disappointed) is that one of the kids has just accidentally broken off the foot board to my bed.
 
Sad, numb. Very grateful to start work later, suspect it will be a long night. Aggravated at myself, for not feeling thankful. Disinterested. No feelings at all, just hopeless, empty. Zero interest in people or things, or doing what I'd normally care about. Everything feels pretty 'over', time to follow through on it I guess. Or it's the ptsd, who knows. Apparently according to feedback none of it shows. But I'm just a shell.
 
Not sure how I feel. Drained from being at my boyfriends house this evening. Sort of happy but sad as well. Jealous really I guess, that I don't have a 'normal' family situation. Upset that there's no real joy, or anything really.

Nervous about tomorrow, annual family get together with aunts and uncles. Praying mum and dad are not going to be there.
 
:hug: Cufflinks and anyone else who would like one.

I am feeling sad, sad, and more sad. Did pretty well yesterday, but am having memories of all sorts of stupid little hurtful things that my father has said to me in the past. I thought that I was over all that, but obviously not! It's really depressing and I want it to stop.
 

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