What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Kim500]

God is so good! I just received a wonderful Christmas gift and because of it I'm not in debt anymore and I'll be able to start fresh with my finances! January will be a fresh start for me! I got on my knees and thanked God so much and prayed for every blessing for the kind person who gave me the gift! The wonderful person who sent it to me said, "Please accept this gift. I know you may find it excessive but I honestly believe God wanted me to give this to you. There is a reason for everything and I know God wants you to have this to help you."

When I thought it was all over and that in a couple of months I wouldn't have the money to keep my apartment, He came and rescued me! There are no smileys to express how happy I am today!!! (*Jumping up and down with joy and thankfulness for God and the goodness that He puts in the hearts of many good people on Earth!*) (Like the many people on this forum who are so kind in giving their support, help, and sharing their experiences to heal and help others!!!):hug:

"Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace to those who have his good will!" (Luke 2:14):hug:

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm anxious over going to the hospital, but I will.

I can truly understand this! The worst part for me, when I went to the hospital yesterday, was when I had to prevent myself from not bolting from the operating table. Thank goodness that they knocked me out.

Whatever you are going to the hospital for, I wish you strength and quick healing.

 

[Changing4Best]

Her responses are almost always identical it's like it's rehearsed.
As I said, very puzzled today.

It may well be that they are rehearsed, with her therapist or whoever is advising her.

 

[goingonhope]

Today is going very well. I woke relaxed and have been ever since. I just now enjoyed a cool game with my son and I am looking forward to the rest of the day.

I have some tenderness to the skin and touch and an ache in the lower right side of my back today and am curious as to what could have caused such today, yet I am grateful that this simple-is the extent of anything physically difficult today.

I feel relaxed, motivated and energetic. :happy:

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm feeling RE$ENTFUL because my niece, who drives a Mercedes sports coup, whose husband's family is made of $$$ and whose husband has a good State job, can afford to go to a massage therapist, pay someone to shovel and plow her snow in front of the house she inherited from MY PARENTS, while I cannot afford to pay my dentist to fill these 10 cavities I have due to my Acid Reflux that is eating my teeth up.

All she sent me for Christmas was a CARD. She never offers to help, she never even offers sympathy! THis is the niece I held in my arms all night so her mother could sleep when she arrived by the BIG STORK from Korea and my sis had been up for 3 days and nights making sure the house was spotless so as not to take any chances with the baby who had no immunity to anything here in the USA in the way of germs (AND SHE KNOWS THIS, I HAVE TOLD HER ABOUT IT). This is the girl I sent Christmas presents to every year when she was growing up. This is the girl who was in a fancy private college while I was homeless for 3 years in the streets. This is the young lady whose wedding cost a small fortune. And she has a good job too.

She posted all these little things about her life on Facebook today, about how tough it is because the snow blower died....

Then she took a picture of her fortune cookie paper, which said "When they can hear, they don't listen." or something of the sort, asking what we all thought it meant. SO I replied, "When they can help, they don't." as my reply. I doubt she will respond in any kind or generous way, but I just had to speak my peace.

And here I am, living on Social Security, having no heat in my house because I cannot afford it. It is 38 degrees F. outside. I don't eat any meat except chicken, etc. I posted a note to this effect on Facebook too, warning folks not to depend upon their Social Security to get them by in their old age.

Let's see if she GETS the messaage! I hope, I hope!

 

[Lionheart]

I feel sad :( and alone and depressed today...the gloomy weather without sunshine is not helping any. I think I may call a friend and ask for some company and perhaps a hug...that would cheer me up a great deal!

 

[Britt.f7]

having no heat in my house because I cannot afford it

Sheila look into your local utility company, unless you already have, to see if they have some sort of program for those less fortunate. Wisconsin can not turn off utilities in the winter time and they do have programs for people who are unable to afford heat and can qualify. It sounds, if you were here, that you would qualify. I can't imagine the state would let you freeze, though, really, nothing should surprise me.

I'm also sorry about the selfishness of your niece.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel peaceful and content. It is a very good feeling. I hope it lasts.

 

[Cufflinks]

whoever is advising her.

Part of the problem is that I don't think anyone is advising her (except maybe her mother)

 

[Changing4Best]

I don't think anyone is advising her (except maybe her mother)

You'd be surprised who might be advising her. My business partner advised me to divorce my 1st husband. I'm also ashamed to admit that a lover advised me to divorce my second husband, and finally convinced me to place him in a nursing home (that husband was suffering from dementia, throwing things at me and trying to kick me often, so I had good reason to place him too, but...). It may be that she is complaining about you to her best friend or a co-worker and that person is advising her!

If her replies seem rote, someone is advising her, take my word for it. She's practiced those replies with SOMEONE.

 

[Changing4Best]

Sheila look into your local utility company, unless you already have, to see if they have some sort of program for those less fortunate.... I'm also sorry about the selfishness of your niece.

I have some kind of help coming from two sources, one is from County Social Services and the other my landlady applied for, for me. The one from Social Services does not kick in until February, unfortunately. Things should get better then, as the award is for $200.00.

The real trouble started because I asked the power company to average my bills. They averaged TOO LOW, by about half, which I didn't catch right away. I am now paying $80.00 a month to catch up, otherwise I would have ended up paying some $250 on the last month of my averaged bills for the year. (February).

My niece has not yet replied to what I said. I'll keep ya'all posted if anything developes! Who knows, some other person may read it and pitch in! "God works in mysterious ways," yes He does!

 

[Cufflinks]

You'd be surprised who might be advising her. If her replies seem rote, someone is advising her, take my word for it. She's practiced those replies with SOMEONE.

Wow Sheila. I know you're right. She is being so hardened about this. Whatever my faults and the PTSD, she knows that I love her unconditionally, I'm a good dad and I provide for my family...even with her deliberately dismantling the marriage I still do.

My PTSD has got worse this year because I've been working for her in her new business (on top of my normal day job). She isn't joining all the dots. Just the ones she wants to.

I need to walk away from this. It's too painful. I was feeling that it was all my fault but I'm beginning to wonder.