What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Springer80]

I'm a bit embarrassed and guilty that it's been so long since I've posted.

Hi Spiderallis; This ain't confession :bag: but your forgiven anyways! :giggle: Take care of yourself, I found sometimes the numb thing was actually a regression thing too. :hug:

 

[Philippa]

Absolutely exhausted from work. Physically wiped out and feeling weak in my muscles, and sore too. Tired...so tired. Glad to be home, glad to have tomorrow off work, a bit upset that I reminded a work colleague of her own family abuse tonight when we got talking. I didn't mean to, yet somehow I seem to do that a fair bit to people. Some don't mind, but some do and would rather not think about it. I feel bad that I caused her to.

 

[Tanishq]

Philippa, it happened naturally. Perhaps she needed to talk with someone who can understand and sympathize with her. You are kind and good person, so you happened to be with her.

 

[Britt.f7]

Today I am feeling a bit apprehensive. I want to back out of my meeting with the nutritionist and lunch with my sister. Not sure about how I will feel with talking to the nutritionist, but I know lunch with my sister will be nice. Glad I made the nutritionist appointment at the last minute otherwise I would have surely backed out.

Including wishes that he be hit by a car and die and that she would be happy

That's horrible! I'm sorry you had to go through this. My first instinct is to always try and understand another person's abuse. Frankly, I have to remind myself that I don't need to understand or accept everything, especially bad behavior. I hope you were able to walk away from this knowing the problem lies within her, not you or your husband.

I'm a bit embarrassed and guilty

Try not to feel that way. When I saw your avatar I thought to myself that we hadn't heard from you in awhile, but there was no malice. Just a glad to see you again feeling. :)

 

[intothelight]

A little nervous about opening and going through the mail that has amassed the past few weeks. But I am feeling stronger physically so that is a good thing. Just am going to take it slow.

 

[kayjay]

Feeling worried. Have had a good long patch of being functional, enough to make massive changes and start to enjoy life.

Im worried I'm starting to slip and I'm gonna lose it all. I wonder if we are ever totally better? Or is it a constant cycle...

Yes kinda worried.

 

[dms]

Hi Jaret, Thanks for the response. It means a lot!

I gave my friend with C-PTSD all my love, attention and helped him financially in every area i could for a year. I even helped him when he had no food, gas and couldn't provide for his children. I was happy just to see him smile because he was so down, and had lost so much while waiting for the Va to approve his 100% disability.

In the mean time I would go out with other male friends occasionally because he would alway say he didn't want a relationship. My PTSD friend says he got upset because I wouldn't meet up with another male friend who was in town and that I was wrong for wasting my other friends time and putting all my energies into him. Later after I confronted him with facts, he said he was mad because I was rude to him by telling him not to give me advice on my other relationships when he didn't want one. He shut me out after that.

He did angrily give me $500 when I call him to say I had a emergency. He also had some of the stuff that I had given him (used candles, cologne and a tablet) in a box and said he wanted to cut our strings completely. He never loved me. He apologized via text a few days later and has since told me to move on and yelled for me to stop texting him. I'm hurting because we was best fiends but I'm trying to move on. Sorry about my grammar.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel cold and tired. The temperature has dropped and I can't get warm.

I must find the energy to wrap up and walk the dogs and then to cook supper. It's strange, in my mind I can visualise myself doing these chores, but the hard part is making my body move and do it.

I'm feeling relieved that I went to a photographer and have had my scars photographed. I'm proud I went. It helped that I knew the photographer, that she was a woman and she wasn't a skinny size 16 or below. No way did I want to reveal my body to well, let's just say I was comfortable with her.

I am feeling drained. My compensation claim has been dragging on for what seems like an age. Having to keep going over my trauma just brings it all back, as if I can't fully move on.

Must be positive, must be positive, must b.......................

 

[Loveneverfails]

The temperature has dropped and I can't get warm

Oh that has to be one of the worst feelings ever! It always makes me feel achey. Hugs KP, I hope you find warmth. Enjoy some nice hot chocolate maybe? That always lifts my spirits and warms me up.

 

[Loveneverfails]

Feeling tired, son is sick and requiring a lot of attention. I feel guilty that it exhausts me to give it.

 

[CraftyCath]

The temperature has dropped and I can't get warm.

Me too KP. I was warmer in the car today than I was in the house. :hug:'s to you.

I feel guilty that it exhausts me to give it.

I feel that guilt too LNF, when my lads need something and I just don't have the energy to deal with them and end up with my anxiety levels through the roof. :hug:'s.

I went to art group today and had a terrible time. I was trying to do a sea scape and making a botch up of it when this other lady comes across to talk to me. She was the one who had encouraged me to do an encaustic (wax art) demonstration. She was excited and told me she had bought some encaustic equipment and had done some art and was now selling it in a new gallery in town.

Turns out she is a semi-professional artist that knows the local scene very well and has now taken my ideas and skills and used them to sell her own work! I felt like I had been slapped across the face, sick and very angry.:mad: She wanted me to be happy for her and I tried to smile but all I was thinking was, 'how could you?' She does all kinds of art (mixed media) and now she has pinched my ideas and, because she has the money and is a member of at least 3 local art groups (that you have to pay to join), she knows how to get her work shown.

She is an excellent artist, has been professionally taught and I can't compete with that. Perhaps I will need to sell my stuff further a field? I can't give up but I feel like doing so - I feel so angry with her.

I have terrible viral headaches and sinus trouble too and feel generally unwell. I'm struggling.

A very difficult and upsetting day for me. :cry:

 

[Loveneverfails]

has now taken my ideas and skills and used them to sell her own work!

What a complete jerk! There are some things a person knows they just shouldn't do and copying for a profit is one of them! I can see why you'd be angry, I'm sorry that woman has no scruples Cath. :( Some people just have no clue or conscience. I hope you feel better with your health soon. I've seen your work on other threads, I think you have a wonderful gift.