What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Spiderallis]

white chocolate & cranberry fudge

oh wow, that sounds delicious!

I'm pretty relaxed today, proud of how my first attempt at making soup turned out. Lucky for me it's yummy, there's a lot of it! Not much to fuss with, just a laid-back family thanksgiving/dad's birthday dinner planned for tomorrow.

 

[ms spock]

I feel a bit of sadness and a bit of relief.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel very unsettled. I spent most of the night going from one nightmare to another. In the last (current), I can't wake up, each time I wake I realise I'm still asleep. I don't know if I'm awake or still asleep and doing what I would if I was asleep. I'm so very confused and scared. This hasn't happened with such clarity before.

 

[EverOnly358]

I'm wishing all of you a really good day! (I don't want to be the only weird one. :O_o:)

Okay, yeah, that was a weird day for me back there. Something about trying to relax and have fun really stressed me out, so my happy mood didn't last. I was not so cheerful on Wednesday, more like sad and tired and depressed. I hate the holidays. It's always a roller coaster of childhood memories and emotions. Enough already!

I feel determined to take some sort of action to change things.

I agree with you, @Lionheart777! Good for you for working to change things! Change is really needed.

To those feeling under the weather (including @macca , @Ms Spock) I hope you feel better soon!

Okay, maybe I'll stop avoiding the tough stuff... what am I feeling? Jeez. I have no idea!

10 minutes later...

Okay about Thanksgiving. It'll be whatever it is. I'll do what I want to do without trying to channel Martha Stewart on speed. :laugh:

Okay about stuff. Usually I would be wildly unhappy about doing nothing yesterday, but I'm just gonna give myself a pass. I'm not gonna beat myself up about it. It is what it is. :confused:

Nervous, I guess. Trying to be calm and accepting of everything is really hard. I really want to go crazy, manic, perfectionist girl and zone out in constant hyper speed action. I haven't done that since I really figured out what was going on with this PTSD stuff. It's not good for me. But there's comfort in it. I dunno. Conflicted. I guess I feel conflicted and nervous. :sour::cautious:

(Sorry, too many words... this stuff is extremely hard for me!)

Happy Thanksgiving to those who are celebrating... hoping you survive what's sure to be a stressful day! And I hope everyone else has a great day, too... be thankful you don't have to do the Thanksgiving stuff today. ;)

D123

 

[macca]

Whew, getting better from the flu now, just a cough hanging on. A nasty one, I've been in bed the last 2 or 3 days. Thanks @D123 !

Anyway - how I'm feeling. It's hard to know. A bit stressed. Some nightmares happening, so anxious too. Apprehensive about the stuff I'm working on in therapy at the moment - leading in to some bigger stuff, though not the core trauma yet.

Happy Thanksgiving to all the Americans on here!

 

[Britt.f7]

Anxious. It is mere hours before I leave to go to my dad's house. I wrote in my blog about how anxious I get at any gatherings and what I think about that contributes to that. Now some of my family, a couple members, read it and know how I feel going. How uncomfortable I am. If I could I would definitely blow it off. They know that too. It's in the blog. Deep breaths.

 

[therisa]

My anxiety levels were lower, before I came to the library, to access the Internet, but they have returned to the levels, I expereince, during the aftermath of a flashback. Can feel my heart rate going through the roof. Right now, I feel emotionally crappy and worthless, after yesterday's flashback, with a very strong sense of dread, mixed in.

 

[DMerish]

Today is Thanksgiving in the US. I'm having mixed feelings - I still harbor some resentment over my ex and his fam for putting their plans for Thx-g way above any plans that I'd like to make with my children, for years and years. :mad: And for imposing a sense of obligation in them that they should go because it's expected of them. And, if they come to my place too (because I've invited them) they feel stressed, and typically when I have invited them our event gets interrupted by a phone call from them. I sort of hate Thx-g. I'm not going anywhere for the traditional Thx-g dinner with folks. Not cooking or plan on having anyone over, although my youngest son may stop by, if he has time :-o On the other hand, it's nice to have a quiet day alone :) I should probably focus on that ;)

 

[Lionheart]

We celebrated Thanksgiving at my house yesterday and it was awesome. I feel blessed to have such a loving and giving family. We are a small family and love one another unconditionally. I didn't realize just how lucky I am, I feel totally grateful and full of love.

I hope everyone has a great day today.
:inlove: and :hug:'s,
Lion

 

[Abstract]

Hope thanksgiving went OK to all who celebrate it and that it wasn't like most of my Christmases! ;)

Feel withdrawn and stopping that deepening is not easy. .

 

[crazy8]

Good post. Identifying feelings is a constant struggle for me, thanks for prompting these thoughts and giving a healthy, important challenge.

Throughout today I felt...

Numb
Controlled, manipulated, and mistreated (though I was not, I incorrectly perceived this from my wonderful boyfriend)
Weak, undeserving of love and happiness
Sad
Worthless
Confused
Loved
Thankful and grateful

 

[KP the nut]

I'm in a lot of neck pain today but at least I have made it into work, unlike yesterday.

Apart from the pain, I'm feeling better mentally. I am looking forward to the weekend, a nice quiet one and the Kris Kringle forum party tomorrow.