What am I feeling today?
Crappy. Miserable. Sad. Disappointed. Frustrated. Pissed. Annoyed. I'm in no mood to mess around with smileys.
I'm going to try to pull myself out of this funk. I have stuff I HAVE to get done. I wish so much that I could just fall into being the Perfect Wife, Perfect Mother, Perfect Friend. People IRL really seem to like me so much better that way... when I have no needs, no complaints and no feelings. I get so much done, I'm a great listener, I make everybody happy. I know there are reasons I'm not supposed to do that... those are bad coping mechanisms, right? It's hard to remember. It's hard always being a burden and always being the bitch. Everybody likes me better when I'm Perfect, Perfect, Perfect. When I turn my feelings off and just do everything for others.
I guess add to the list... Lost. Alone. Worthless.