What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[The Hermit King]

Lonely:hungover:

 

[Madhather]

Today I feel..
jumpy
jello-like
strange

 

[EverOnly358]

What am I feeling today? :cautious:

Why is this still so hard? :confused:

I'm feeling okay, I guess. :wideeyed: Everything is going along well enough... :eek: which only makes me nervous about what disaster is about to occur. ;)

I hope everyone is having a good day today. :joyful: Hugs :hug: to anyone who needs them.

 

[franciemarnie]

Anxious. Something pressing down on upper chest. Tired of feeling tired and not having energy to go out for basic stuff like buying jeans. Couldn't stay settled enough in meditation to feel still point. Going to take shower and go get Levi's even though tired.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

I feel like I might be moving forward. And I'm excited about that(:

 

[DMerish]

Six hours later after I first posted this morning; stuff still not put away, but I did sign up as a member on a dating site. :roflmao:
Never did that before, and I think I'm going to be sick/sorry :cautious: :sorry::sick: what was I thinking????? :confused: :unsure: :wacky:

 

[ms spock]

Has something changed in you? I know you still post about unwelcome feelings, etc. But I swear, in the last month or so it seems to me that a new strength, a new outlook, a new resolve, well, something is changing. Is it true?

Thank you for admiring my spirit. As a child I didn't a lot of those emotional goodies of praise and positive reinforcement so it means a lot to me. I have a feeling of lots of emotional neediness and desperation.

I hope that I am changing. Thanks for noticing improvements in me.

I am working really hard to be honest about stuff.

In October I self harmed and took an overdose and I realise all this fantasy and distorted thinking that I was hanging on to. Suicidal ideation had been my security blanket and I am working hard to not do that as my default emotion and position in life. The pain of not having my family in my life came up so much. You know, if I was dying I would get to see my siblings again. That my partner would be better off without me.

So no matter how embarrassed I am I not staying going around in my own head. If I am thinking that stuff I am ringing helplines and I am changing and challenging my thinking.

I am mindful that the medication debacle has been going on since July so I am trying to not lean on my friends so much.

There is absolutely nothing I can do about the past. Yesterday for a few hours I accepted that.

I am realising I am good in some areas of theory but pretty poor and in a few cases absolutely useless in a range of practical areas. So bit by bit I am trying to think it through and work it out.

I still have that childhood hope that my real parents (who were space aliens and had to leave me with and earth family) and one day will come back and rescue me. I know it is so sad. I used to comfort myself with the fact that my real parents would be horrified if they knew what was being done to me.

I have begun to process the trauma and work things through. I didn't understand that I hadn't really done this before.

So yes I think I am changing. I am monitoring my thinking a lot more.

Those this week I had bad panic attacks and couldn't come home one night - it is all over the place. Yes I am deciding to live each day now rather than thinking about how to die each day.

 

[franciemarnie]

I feel literally sick with fatigue. The left side of my body feels like a crumpled marionette. My right side feels normal human size and shape, and neutral in feeling.

 

[Philippa]

Inspired by you Ms Spock to challenge my thoughts more when I notice them coming up. Feeling better today, and I feel respected by a friend who did not tear me down when I asked for his honest opinion about me in one area. He was respectful and gentle with me, and I appreciate that so much right now. I always enjoy interacting with him, as he speaks to me with respect at all times. I haven't had much of that from the males in my family or in relationships mostly, with some exceptions of course.

I am looking forward to spending some time away from technology today, and riding to the creek to spend some time in nature and connect with my heart. I feel generally positive about 2014 so far.

 

[WSQ]

Make it stop please! I can't stand it anymore.

 

[Lionheart]

Am grateful that I am recovering from the flu, ...it was a rough one, to say the least. H1N1 going around the area that I live in. Don't know if that's what it was, but I came close to needing hospitalization for it.

Happy to be alive. Determined, with a new resolve, to make some needed changes in my life. A bit lonely, but know that it will pass. Hopeful. Thankful.

 

[SwordsPandaGirl]

Im feeling:
Alone
Cautious
Scared
Anxious
Depressed
Confused
Angry.

My anxiety has overwhelmed me today :( I also keep thinking that someone is going to come into my room and get me (my abuser did this often at night).