What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Badger]

Worried...:banghead:

 

[KP the nut]

I'm tired now. I wish I could reply to a member but it is late and this bunny is heading for her bed.

Night night.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm trying really hard stay in the moment- I've got my disability appeal hearing on Thursday and I'm terrified. Tomorrow I'll talk to the lawyer, he's going to go over how it works so I know what to expect. Tuesday I'll have 't-time' and practice the relaxation stuff and work on how I'll handle the big scary important court day. Taking care of me is the best thing I can do to make sure things go well, so I'll focus on that.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel a little bit lonely, but otherwise okay. I am having difficulty sleeping, but got enough of a nap to feel rested. I am pleased with some of the healing work I have been doing lately 'cause it's paying off, which is encouraging.

I started the nicotine patch and am quitting smoking today which makes me a little bit nervous, but mostly I am happy to be stopping. I am also hopeful that future treatment for diabetes will lead to an increase in energy, weight loss, etc. and that I will enjoy an improved state of health for making needed changes.

I like the fact that I have started reaching out for support and am moving out of isolation. I find it a bit scary but exciting at the same time. Everyone has been so supportive and I feel really blessed!

 

[DMerish]

I'm feeling pretty good physically and mentally. I'm feeling somewhat lonely and somewhat weird, emotionally. I'm trying to step out of my agoraphobic social comfort zone and finding it scary. Two female friends asked to get together with me this weekend. I accepted, then declined near the last minute. I shouldn't have done that - I need to connect with and expand my friends base, especially with female friends. I'm trying to "get out there" and date. I've had a bit of fun and a bit of frustration, but overall I feel inept. I've never date much when I was younger, and sometimes now feel like an insecure and scared teenager.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm tired. I'm really tired. I slept for 3 and a half hours and woke up at 4am to drop off a couple for a trip they're going on. As a result I feel spacy and tired today.

 

[Spiderallis]

Just spoke to the lawyer who'll be helping me on Thursday and I'm a little less scared- knowing what will happen makes it easier to be ready for it. He sounds pretty confident about things, but I'm still nervous. The building has the same rules as an airport for what's allowed inside, so I'll be allowed to bring in my stuffed bunny! I'm not afraid of looking crazy, they've got my files, they already know.

 

[franciemarnie]

Feel refreshed from hour walk outside. Deep freeze next few days so trying to get out while I can. Tired though. Up til past dawn. Kinda sad. Kinda hopeful. Kinda happy too.

 

[macca]

Very tired. Didn't sleep well at all. Going to see my T this morning, and hopefully get to work out what on earth is going on post-EMDR (actually, also what on earth went on in EMDR, for that matter).

 

[Queen Boudica]

I feel dead inside, that is how I feel. Today I should have taken the kids to a movie, but I couldn't. There were no appointments and I just did not want to go out. I cleaned the kitchen.

I feel dead inside. I run on reserves. I push myself for the kids. Fear and such sadness and loneliness and shell shocked. I just want to give up, but I can't. I carry on. I want peace.

 

[Hidden]

Scared
Unloved
Not good enough
not strong enough
worthless
emotionally damaged
financially unsecured
shut down
breaking point

 

[macca]

Numb, numb, and numb. If I let anything but numbness in, I'll crack. I have to be numb, as my husband is now emotionally unavailable, even though I try very hard not to burden him. He's over my having PTSD, and feels I should be better by now (I've only been seeing someone since Oct, when it hit me all of a sudden). He no longer has any empathy for me. He has a habit of seeing everything as "attention-seeking", including my son's OCD. If he thought logically for 2 minutes, he would realise that I tend to hold it in, rather than try and get attention. I don't want anyone to know. I have to get through on my own somehow for the next few weeks, as my T is away for a month now. I don't know if I can keep the lid on my cr@p that long. She did suggest that maybe he should come with me for a session, so I just somehow have to hang on.