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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I feel tired, but now I know why.....a medical specialist has confirmed that I have sleep apnea. Treatment will start within a few weeks. I will be placed on a C-pap machine (continuous-positive airway pressure) at night to ensure that I don't stop breathing, so that I will start to feel better after that. I feel happy to know what the problem is, now I am just anxious to fix it. lol ;)
 
I'm disappointed. And it's making me feel annoyed. I don't feel like talking. And my mom is in a good mood. It's making her very talkative. She's reading off recipes and nutritional information and talking about what's on tv and what's in the tv book thing. She's really enthusiastic. I think it's showing on my face that I'm not in a good mood. And I think she's trying to pull me out of it without actually saying it. But the more she talks the more annoyed I get. I don't want to leave the room. I just came back into the room.
 
I got myself feeling a little better and then did a classic me and put my foot in my mouth. Now I feel like a total a**hole. I was trying to make a dry wit sarcastic wink wink joke to my dad about how tomorrow is Valentine's Day which is a "good day to buy flowers wink wink for your wife wink wink". I had a big smile on my face. The problem was my dad wasn't looking. I didn't say "wink wink". So he thought I was being a smartass implying he should go buy roses for his wife. I KNOW he always does. I was just trying to playfully remind him. But it totally blew up in my face. My mom was sitting right there. And my dad looked up at me and said "why would you say something like that?". And that's when it hit me like a ton. He thought I was being serious. He thought I was being a smartass. And the more I tried to clarify and apologize the worse I made it. Finally my mom said I should stop. She said I was making it worse. I finally just stopped talking and apologized again and said "now I feel bad". I feel terrible :sorry:.
 
Thank you dearest @Abstract. I hope your sadness goes away super fast. Hugs to you,

@BlackbirdSinging - That sounds like exactly what used to happen with me and my dad. Honestly I don't get why he couldn't immediately understand it was a joke-y thing you were saying when you explained it. I think - forgive me - that he was kind of a jerk in not acknowledging the misunderstanding right away. You were clearly just kidding.
 
Exhausted. Was in control mode re things outside of my power to control. Came out of it but it's so so draining - to do the impossible - essentially to be God. As if I could! Old habit from childhood. The world keeps spinning without my mind watching it.

Plus GI tract has me down. Physical pain undermines energy - mind, body, spirit.

Fundamentally I feel all is well. Wasn't feeling that this morning though.
 

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