What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Spiderallis]

I'm going to call it angiety. I get really anxious about not knowing how to be angry and scared that I'll express it in some horribly unhealthy way.

 

[ms spock]

@Spiderallis That is creative!

 

[Miss_Understood]

Heartbroken.

 

[Hope4Now]

@Miss_Understood I'm sending gentle healing thoughts to you.

 

[Hope4Now]

Determined. I am going to create a crazy collage of all the battling voiced in my head. The linearity of writing just doesn't cut it and I must do something to externalize this cacophony.

 

[macca]

Feeling vulnerable and exposed (due to telling my brother about my PTSD). Feeling jumpy and scared. Feeling like everyone can see through me to my core, and are judging me. I know it's not true, it's just fear talking, but it's bothering me lately, because I feel faulty.

 

[Changing4Best]

Interested in what I am reading here.

 

[Deleted member 10686]

At this moment I feel positive. I'm going to stop sleeping and take my dog for a walk. It seems like the effectiveness of my meds depends greatly on the exact time I take them. Gotta time it right and maybe I did today.

 

[Britt.f7]

Not quite blah, definitely not happiness. Desperate nothingness.

 

[ninja]

Reflective and calm.

 

[EverOnly358]

I'm going to call it angiety. I get really anxious about not knowing how to be angry and scared that I'll express it in some horribly unhealthy way.

LOL! Angiety! Been there! ;) I wish I had some advice, but I really don't. Expressing any type of anger freaks me out. But I do know that it's okay to be feeling whatever you're feeling. :hug:

What am I feeling today? :cautious:

Hmmm. It's complicated, I guess. I'm feeling weird, tired and out of sorts. But not too bad. So, kinda, on one level, I'm feeling okay. My life, the present, it's great. I'm really happy, content, I have everything I need. But then that's all overlaid with the past, which is way too close to the surface today, and I'm miserable and cold and hungry and lonely and sad and feeling hurt, both emotionally and physically. And I can't shake those feelings. On another level, I'm worried about the future. I feel like I'm in limbo... I no longer have to spend every single second of the day caring for my family... most especially my special needs daughter... she's doing so much better. But I can't figure out what the heck I'm going to do next with my life. I don't like not knowing what to expect. I don't like not having a plan. But everything's so unsettled as I work through my trauma and my feelings from the past. It's all jumbled today. One minute, I'm in the present, happy, warm, content... then I flip and the past takes over and I'm shivering and starving and miserable and I would be freaking out, if only I knew how to freak out... past me was too good at holding it all inside and just being perfect on the outside instead... and I worry I'm going to be this fractured person forever, so why am I even trying to plan what to do next in life... I feel like I'm going to be wading through all my childhood stuff forever. :x3:

 

[Hope4Now]

One minute, I'm in the present, happy, warm, content... then I flip and the past takes over and I'm shivering and starving and miserable and I would be freaking out, if only I knew how to freak out... past me was too good at holding it all inside and just being perfect on the outside instead... and I worry I'm going to be this fractured person forever,

I am the same way. This forum is funny because it asks "What are you feeling today?" For me, it should be "What are you feeling this minute?" And, I only freak out on the inside usually (except for shaking and body jolts and constant pain). So basically, nobody knows how much help I really need, and I am incapable of expressing the depths of misery that I'm in. Catch-22. Gotcha! Somehow I think that if I could freak out--whether in vocal despair or anger--some of the mess inside me would release.