What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[fin]

exhausted.........this week has been all over the place.
I have been all over the place.
feel confused
just tired mentally and physically from being so frozen at times and then "off" at others

sad -very sad

avoiding (diaries) so I guess that means I am afraid (of triggering)
feel inadequate (at not being able to read someone else's diary from 2nd paragraph because of triggering) and then not being able to say something of some comfort.

lonely
tired at trying to think of any other feeling words
frustrated at my brain not working like it used to...words, concentration
tired from crying...I feel like I am crying all the time at the moment...where do all the tears come from?
confused - all the years I didnt cry

triggered when I stopped writing and heard the tv in the background ...for some reason the guy on the trailer...what he was saying started triggering me...couldnt get to it quick enough to turn it off.
Angry at that
and now a little freaked out at the silence here with me now

Vulnerable
I think I may be starting to almost be triggering myself as Im writing this now as I am following some spiralling train of thought which has gone from ok to starting to freak so am going to sign off and try to find something else to have on in the background...there has to be something.
I feel like in following my train of thought here in trying to connect to how I feel right now...usually a time when I try to switch off any feelings or thoughts. Damp myself down, contain...
confused I dont even know if I am doing the right thing
frustrated at not having started the work with the psychologist yet
disappointed at the whole rambling thing and far too much information that is just pouring out of me about not really an awful lot
inadequate

Because I read the postings above me and thought no...right now I dont feel all of those things, a couple of hours ago yes but not now, most days yes...but not now. Not right at this moment
but yes yes I do

Unsure that I should be writing any of this

 

[fin]

After the initial excitement of just being taken out of moderation and I am ...want to whoop! whoop!! Because this seems positive for me...a step forward. YAY me : )
Like I just got a gold star

I feel peaceful -some... and it feels different and that has to be good.

~fin

 

[patrick]

It is a milestone isn't it? Congratulations, you made the cut. And welcome as a full member of the team.

 

[fin]

Thankyou Patrick
anything that is moving forward right now is good

What am I feeling today? - tired as in weary from it (thats what I meant when I wrote that above also)

Confused - as I feel a little misunderstood

Hopeful about the coming week -new psychologist
Worried about the coming week -new psychologist

Determined- this isnt going to beat me

 

[Tinyflame]

Good luck fin- will be pulling for you.
Exciting week to come for you, actually- great, that is a REALLY big step.
:Hug_emoticon:

 

[Tinyflame]

Exhausted but astonished in a way to be taking new things in. Kind of overwhelmed, but more at peace.

 

[fin]

Thankyou Junebug ..
...glad you are more at peace. Overwhelmed in a good way I hope.

big hugs to all

 

[Mina]

I am feeling very pressured. Sometimes I go AWOL from my phone for a while, maybe a few weeks, at least with certain people. Sometimes I just can't handle their drama, or hearing "why haven't I heard from you? why haven't you called me back?" or whatever it is. The person who's doing this right now is my pseudo-mom, and I know she thinks she's doing the right thing by trying to track me down, but honestly - if in a week and a half you have left me 5 voicemails all saying hi, happy new year, and 2 text messages, and an email, give it a rest. That feels like SO much pressure to me. The rest of my friends have learned this over the past year, so quit putting pressure on me to be the same as I was before PTSD.

Now I just have to figure out how to tell her, nicely, to quit "stalking" me. :rolleyes:

 

[fin]

I am feeling sad...

scrap that....am feeling pretty crap.
sorry but true

~fin

 

[Tinyflame]

I am feeling awe-struck at how much help has come to me today out of nowhere through what I have seen and heard, and the kindness and help of (particularly) "God"/ The "Universe" and 2 very sweet people.

 

[cragger65]

Sounds pretty awsome, Meg. Cheers. And Fin, I feel for ya. Don't be sorry for your feelings (as someone wise and caring told me recently).

 

[patrick]

How are you feeling today, Dave (Cragger)? I'm a little better today than I was yesterday. Got a couple of things done for other people that I've been wanting to do for a while and it usually feels good when I can do that. It's a selfish thing really, I do it as much for me as I do the other people, but hey, whatever works.