What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[cragger65]

Hang in there Medic. I've felt all these feelings in combanation before myself, and it can pass.

I'm feeling tired out, but not worn out if that makes sense. I've been up extremely late the last few nights, no sleep at all last night. So, I am hoping for the next 3 days I can find a good night's sleep in there somewhere to refresh me and put me back on my feet by the weekend. Here's hoping.

 

[goingonhope]

I must work harder on balancing negative with positive realities As reality, whether it's family, friends, people in general, or sometimes my own reality, just plain hurts. I feel so sad. Just plain sad!

And, yet somewhat happy, because I just know it could again and has been worse before. Anything and everything could always be worse. And, then there is the even worse I'd like to not ever imagine.

Anyhow, feeling:
Sad, very tired, quietly overwhelmed and yet courageous, ......ready to go at life tommorrow, provided I can get some sleep tonight. :rolleyes:

 

[Hemels]

Today is feel -

confused
distant
ashamed
unwanted

and something i cannotput my finger on at the moment :doh:

Hemmy xXx

 

[trapped]

Hang in there Hemmy....

Today I feel tired, but I guess that's expected given that I only got a few hours of sleep last night. I was going to go back to sleep, then one of my friends started giving me a hard time- my body automatically wakes up BY 5:30am, even in a new time zone, my body will rapidly adjust, and I'm always up no later than 5:30am.... and that's fine, I enjoy it. Even though I didn't go to bed til late and was exhausted and didn't want to get up today at that time, I got up anyway to do my yoga out on the balcony. I was going to go back to bed after my yoga, but then my friend started making comments about my early rising habits and how I should just learn to stay asleep longer and how if I'm tired it was irresponsible and unhealthy to get up and do the yoga (which is part of my morning routine, as it relaxes me, and I am anxious the rest of the day if I skip it any day of the week... I don't do agressive yoga in the mornings, just relaxing meditative yoga to clear my head). I didn't want to put up with hearing any more about it, so I'm staying up I suppose.

 

[SunnyBrookFarm]

Regretful
Hyper-alert
Distracted
Worried
Remorseful

One of those days I suppose, there's always tomorrow though!

 

[cat]

Too many things!

Tired, confused, happy, determined, angry, sad, frustrated, but then, I've just got home from my appointment with my psychologist, it will take me 48hrs to 'digest' all we've talked about but after that I will have taken another step towards my recovery!

Stay strong everyone!

 

[cynelena]

Disappointed, scared, sad, frustrated, and mad as hell!

 

[FlameTachiku]

This is the anniversary of when I learned my ex- was having an affair. Life has been empty loosing my faith. I move forward like a robot to school, graduate, am a professional, hold a job. Inside I cant plan into the future at all. One day follows the next. I care for my son I care for my parents. I cant dream. I want to love I can not love. I want to live I barely exist. I am sad to the core of my being. I smile and do what I can. I feel the deepest pain imaginable. Push numb move. I can function when I feel dead. On the outside. I feel worthless, hopeless, and dead. But it does not end.

 

[SunnyBrookFarm]

Just to prove that every day with PTSD can be different - today I feel:

Rested
Mild-Anxiety but not uncontrollable
Determined

 

[cherryblossom]

Today I feel

Let down by so called friends..... sad to admit I'm better off alone (then no-one can hurt you) :dontknow:

 

[Dylan]

Discouraged, sad, anxious and paranoid.

I've been struggling to stay out of a "loop" for months and finally succumbed a few weeks back. I had to go back on medication, wich is really discouraging to me. I've worked so damned hard and I hate taking these powerful, synthetic medications - being a guinea pig.

I don't think I'm very good at my job at all but have been unable to find something else. I'm extremely paranoid that people are talking about me, finally figuring out that I'm useless and worthless and should be fired. There's another analyst here who isn't very good and the talk that goes on behind her back is bad. I hate not being good at what I do, not having that confidence or feeling good at the end of the day that I've done a good job.

The anxiety each morning I have to come to work is very high.

Since I'm not going to go around asking people, "Say, what do you really think of me?" I need to find a way to #1 feel good about my job/gain more confidence and/or competence and #2 let go of this preoccupation with people finding out that I don't have #1.

Just needed to get that out.

Thanks,
Dylan

 

[sidekick]

Full of rage at my husband and yet for the first time in 3 days I put on a fake smile for him..putting it down in the cage where it belongs until it is safe to deal with it along with everything else....

Sad, hurt, happy that I am in therapy again, happy that hubby is in therapy and happy that daughter is no longer unsafe..