What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[cat]

Actually quite good!

I've been on a Child & Adolescent Mental Health training course for 2days. I was reluctant to go as I was afraid the course content might trigger me causing me to leave the room or worse have to accept help from someone. Thankfully that didn't happen, there were a few dodgy moments but with self-talk & breathing I got through them.

That's another thing to add to my 'I can do it' list! by the time I see my psychologist in 3wks time I'm hoping the list will be much longer than my 'I can't do it' list.

My father used to say to me 'there's no such word as can't until you've tried' I wish he was here to see my trying now, I think he'd be proud, I just have to work on being proud of myself- that bits harder to do!

 

[sticks-and-stones]

Cold!!
And weak (had a lot of blood taken earlier.)
I'm also not looking forward to fighting to see a new therapist.

 

[Spunky]

tired/exhausted from fighting PTSD alone and for so many years
broken into many pieces
lonely
anxious
damaged
hopeless, like I'm never going to recover or improve

 

[sidekick]

Peaceful right now

 

[NarcSis]

Calm. So far so good.

 

[Paloma]

Exhausted...and I just got up.
Depressed/despair that I cannot beat this overwhelming fatigue.
Sad that it seems the PTSD is winning.

 

[Spunky]

Hi Paloma, I know exactly how you feel. The despair can be so overwhelming. I feel so inadequate sometimes at fighting this battle and making little or no progress to healing. But I am glad I found this forum; the people here are encouraging even when they know how rotten we feel. I continue to persevere, but it isn't easy. I want you to know I'm thinking about you (and so are a lot of other people here) and I care. Sometimes we can only take tiny steps forward. Give yourself credit for doing that. We will get better.

 

[cat]

This morning I'm not sure, tired, confused, aching, fed-up......

I've had yet another disturbed night of very muddled dreams spanning the last 30yrs. My psychologist is pleased this has started happening as it means I've started to re-process my trauma. That's is great, but i really do need some sleep!
Oh well, there's always to night...........

 

[LoveWins]

Sorry to hear you're achy and fed up cat!
I too have had very broken sleep recently. Waking up screaming, kicking out, swearing at my husband, poor guy! Aswell as walking around and having weird nightmares. So firstly-tired!

Also a bit silly that I've been going through a complete isolation phase again. I just can't bring myself to talk to people even though I want to. I don't think I know what to say

Slightly nervous

Otherwise, good

 

[NarcSis]

Was okay until I came to write in my diary.....now,

Anxious, afraid, vulnerable.

 

[cragger65]

Feeling a little better. Cried for a couple of days, and thought of ways of offing myself a lot. Man, when the lows hit, they can really come on hard. Trying to shift out of that tonight, called the suicide hotline and it helped just to talk about it and cry a little, instead of just doing it all alone.

 

[Grainne]

Oh Cragger65...:( I hope today is brighter for you.

Today, I feel low, quiet, and small. today, I wish I was invisable.