I feel rotten because I thought I had friends, but they're more like acquaintances. I can talk to them about everything and they are supportive, but the thing is they all live relatively far away and I never see any of them. My best friend right now, who is genuinely concerned about me, and writes me every week, is someone I don't know in real life and lives all the way in England.
I feel lonely too because I have nothing to do, I have been in the process of getting a job that I can handle since September, but without success, and it's starting to be extremely frustrating to sit around all day.