Thank you all so much! Today I have regained control of the tears and am finding comfort in who she is and what she has been/meant to me. I am going to be flying back to Oregon again in a couple weeks to spend time with her if it isn't too late, or to help with whatever needs to be done to settle things. Wish I could go sooner, but I have an important appointment I need to keep on the 11th. I am so tempted to say screw it and go, but the fall out would not be good at all. Praying she holds on until I can get there! I know, selfish isn't it :(.