I'm grateful for the 4 baby chicks I got.
I'm grateful for the functional analysis test that's done now.
I'm grateful my friend came with me as it was horrible. Not the test, I couldn't do a lot of it because of pain, but the fact that the person giving the test said that since I used to sell stuff on eBay, I knew computers and could work. She said that spinal cord injury and spinal arthritis don't correlate with chronic pain, so I just have to shut the pain off and go back to work. It's all in my mind. I told her that she doesn't even know me, and I try my hardest every day to do things, but the pain is overwhelming. I've been to acupuncture, pain rehabilitation, physical therapy (who discharged me because my back is too unstable in 2 places), a pain psychologist (who told the neurosurgeon my pain had a physical basis), a pain doctor who I continue to see, and says there is a physical reason for my pain. and chronic pain self-help groups that I quit because they were all about drugs.
I am grateful I will be able to meditate and allow this to return to the ocean of thoughts.