What Are Your Goals For 2011

[cherryblossom]

Thanks 712xx :). Hopefully, others will see that it is possible to turn things around, and to 'manage' PTSD. Clearly, I don't know how long it will last, and I do still have the odd bad day, or week, but on the whole, an unmeasurable improvement from where I was at the start of 2011.

One other thing I forgot to add to my last point, was that I finished trauma therapy in December 2011. (Oops, I can't believe I forgot that - when therapy was THE big key to unlocking my issues :oops: ) Although I miss my therapist and our sessions a little bit, I still have her number, but I haven't felt like I needed it. But I always know how to contact her in the future, if I need to, which is reassuring.

 

[712xx]

^That's amazing cherryblossom. I can relate to having a surge of pride -- though, since we have very low lows (sometimes for a really long time), it can be really scary to have success and have an elevated high. When I graduated college the first time, I nearly self-distructed. I was only used to the small success of getting through the day without 'incident' ... then passing exams, earning high marks on end of term report cards ... those were the biggest accomplishments I'd ever had in my whole life. There were stumbles along the way, but we all do when you are climbing a mountain.

Then to look back and SEE how far and high I've climbed -- it can be disorienting and surreal.

The problem with my life was, my mountain was more like a glacier, underwater. I had far to climb just to reach the surface. My mind diminished my own success because I wasn't doing as well as 'the normal people'. I had to learn to be proud of MY success and how far I had come and worked. :)

I can appreciate your success and know how hard you've worked! Your success is like a big kick in the ptsd gut, lol. I love reading about people being able to climb above the surface of this underwater glacier -- not only to the surface, but well above. It is scaryy though still. I do keep falling, but I am too determined (and well practiced) and will get up and find any grip I can so I don't fall as far as I was before having success.

Cheers to you. :tup: Here's to pride in success, and a boost to future accomplishments!