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I feel often as if like I'm in a war zone, or my mind and self has escaped my body and occupies some kind of realm that literally feels like "shell shock" a feeling of intrusive thoughts as well as an awareness that's disturbing where I don't feel integrated but that's when I can be thinking of 20 things at once.
I know this sounds stupid but at my weakest I get thoughts about all the rdf and signals crossing through my body,,that's what I think about because there's nothing I can do about it, that renders me powerless- and thus is my minds worst "go to" fear if that makes sense.
Its pretty terrible and when my mind seems to do this is comes all at once. The dissociation and intrusive fragments, literally like a bomb has exploded and left wreckage everywhere. How can I stop this?
It seems I have developed this capacity over years of prolonged acute stress.
I know that's what happened and I don't think there's any way of going back, but I want to curtail it or stop it if I can, like a fissure. So far rest, chilling taking time off and associating like as in coming back in my body, sitting, pulling my soul back into my body when it starts to go apeshit like this. Any other suggestions?
I know this sounds stupid but at my weakest I get thoughts about all the rdf and signals crossing through my body,,that's what I think about because there's nothing I can do about it, that renders me powerless- and thus is my minds worst "go to" fear if that makes sense.
Its pretty terrible and when my mind seems to do this is comes all at once. The dissociation and intrusive fragments, literally like a bomb has exploded and left wreckage everywhere. How can I stop this?
It seems I have developed this capacity over years of prolonged acute stress.
I know that's what happened and I don't think there's any way of going back, but I want to curtail it or stop it if I can, like a fissure. So far rest, chilling taking time off and associating like as in coming back in my body, sitting, pulling my soul back into my body when it starts to go apeshit like this. Any other suggestions?
