What Made You Angry Today?

[BlackbirdSinging]

My mom made me angry. She's asking me to run an errand for her and she's insisting that I do it before this afternoon. It's not that I don't want to help her. It's that I've been sick for 2 weeks. I have a cough that's triggering my asthma. I keep coughing and getting short of breath.

I went to the doctor last week. I had to put a call in to my doctor yesterday. I've been trying to take it easy and not push myself. It doesn't help that it's been unusually cold and windy here.

It makes me angry that instead of understanding that what I need is to stay inside out of the cold and wind and rest she's asking me to go out and she's insisting that I do it as soon as possible. She's even walking around the house mumbling to herself that she can't get anyone to do this.

Maybe I'm being selfish or unfair. I don't know but it makes me mad. The only place I really needed to go today was to the pharmacy on the corner to pick up a prescription my doctor called in yesterday. And I don't even want to do that. I just want to stay in bed under my electric blanket and take it easy.

 

[holdenmonty]

In my personal opinion you aren't being selfish or unfair @BlackbirdSinging with you being sick and your asthma being triggered I wouldn't want you out in the cold and the wind. Is there a reason that she isn't able to run that certain errand, and is there a reason why that she is insisting on it being done as soon as possible?

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

In my personal opinion you aren't being selfish or unfair @BlackbirdSinging Is there a reason that she isn't able to run that certain errand, and is there a reason why that she is insisting on it being done as soon as possible?

Thank you for saying that. I always end up questioning myself and doubting myself. She and my dad are involved with something in the community for the early part of the day but it hasn't been very demanding. And in my opinion she could have run her errand and come back but she felt like she couldn't go.

There is a time constraint on her errand but she'll be done hours before it would be too late for her to run it. So it really frustrated me.

 

[holdenmonty]

I would be frustrated as well. Especially since when you are sick you are suppose to rest instead of running around doing stuff.

 

[Anrish]

How my chief talked to me...I didn't know that he was talking with our secretary, I just saw them standing together and had an envelope for her. I just had some additional information concering the envelope and started "Just..."...and my chief got really angry and bitchy "NO JUST! I'm talking right now!"...and then he ignored me again and talked to her. I just left the room....but I was short before crying.

 

[Anrish]

When I read the newspaper! :mad: ....the opening of the European Central Bank will soon take place in the city where I work. It will be a very hard week with lots of demonstrations - and the people from bloccupy who want to disturb the whole city are so bold. They say that the right to demonstrate is a democratic base right - okay. But they also say that no one should be kept off because he couldn't afford the bill for a hotel or similar. So, they claim it to be their right that the city has to supply them with free places to sleep! ...if the city does not, they might just occupy buildings. ...how contradictory can someone behave?! They want to disturb the city and at the same time the city shall help them?! What a big :poop: is this?!

I remember the last demonstrations - and it was like a war in the city. Lots of destruction and lots of hurt people. ....I already know that I will work during this time. I don't want anybody to be hurt, but it's hard when there arrive people who just come to make trouble and to turn everything into violence. And how can someone demonstrate against capitalism while he or she is wearing brand-name clothes, using an Iphone and eating a McDonald's menu?! ...March will be hard time...and they will even ruin my birthday in some ways - because I won't be able to go to a concert with my friends (most of them are colleagues) because we'll have to work....

 

[Queen Boudica]

What made me angry? A lot of things. But really I recognise that anger is pointless. It isn't about anger it is about hurt and disappointment and desperation and wanting support and help and friends and knowing that is never going to be.

It is about that lonely child in the playground, walking round in circles, disassociating, wondering why none of the other kids want to be with her and would rather pick every bit of her apart, her appearance, her behaviour, who she is. Nothing new, that's what she got from her mother anyway, so why expect anything else? But I know all this. And I am angry at myself that I still can't get over lonely and let down and just can't accept that this is it, this is life.

But I digress, What made me upset today. Fake. People, who promise things, say things they will help, they will do something for you. And I finally realised, it isn't about helping you at all. It is just words. It is about making themselves feel better. Making themselves feel good in moment. When it comes down to it, they really have no intention of doing what they say. They just make themselves feel good and then go on and forget. Only problem is you are so desperate for help you clung onto their words and believed them. Because, every little thing can make that difference and you are so alone and so struggling you just want to cling onto something. But then you realise it is about them.

And I don't understand because when I say I will help someone or do something for them I mean it, I do it, I don't let people down. And, if I can't I apologise and explain why. But people don't do that.

 

[Ronin]

Memories. And I'm still trying to figure what to do about that one job, because the obvious option (leaving) occured to me as usual late.

 

[myheart]

ecause when I say I will help someone or do something for them I mean it, I do it, I don't let people down. And, if I can't I apologise and explain why. But people don't do that.

Hi there! I have found that people who have suffered greatly have a tendency to be good like that because we have had so much pain, that we don't want to inflict the same pain on others. I like people that have suffered the best of all, because they seem the most REAL, the most compassionate.
And about "wanting support and help and friends and knowing that is never going to be." Sometimes good people will come into your life and truly care and want to help you, but as for me, I count on God to be there for me...always...24 hours a day...day or night...and God has NEVER let me down. That is my true Friend...that is my God.

 

[Queen Boudica]

And now I'm angry I'm triggered. hmmmmmmmm

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

I am angry for no reason, it seems. I am so angry I could cry.
I feel like any little dumb thing could make me lash out.

Scumbag hormones.

 

[theotherside]

Im angry i gained all my weight back. I worked my a@% off. Now back to square one again. Feeling like a big a#% failure. Urghhhh
Pissed