What Made You Angry Today?

[Emily The Strange]

I spend most of my time angry whilst at work. The people i work with are so inconsiderate, they make noises and sneak up on me knowing that i don't cope very well. I never lash out at them, I store it up and take it out on myself later that day. I spend all evening beating myself up about not standing up to them and then get more and more angry with myself until I do something silly. then it's the same the next day.

And today I was supposed to see my T and she cancelled 30 mins before the appointment via text message so I didn't read it until I arrived after driving all the way there. She gave no reason and her phone was turned offf when I tried to call. It's the third time she has done it!

 

[pumpkinpie]

Emily, yeesh, what kind of job are you working at that permits harrassment like that? And what's up with your therapist? That would make anyone feel bad, and she's supposed to be making you feel better, not worse. :(

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Having someone who knows I have PTSD frantically yell at me about paperwork through the bathroom door as I was getting out of the shower. I make many concentrated efforts to not behave that way and it's not easy. And yet they wanted to know why I wasn't reacting with the same sense of urgency that they were :banghead:. I don't expect to be babied but I do wish the people around me wouldn't yell at me frantically like that.

 

[ms spock]

How people take advantage of other people.

 

[KP the nut]

Being so busy in the office on my own that I couldn't even make a cup of coffee.

 

[ms spock]

Women who know their partners beat them. The whole social network says don't marry this guy. Who everyone warns that they shouldn't have children because 70% of men who hit their partners sexually abuse their children. Who then becomes the biggest drama queen because her children have been sexually abused by her husband. Like as if everyone couldn't see it coming!

 

[Britt.f7]

Hearing that my brother got thrown in jail for being behind a single payment on child support(not even the full payment). He pays a great deal and then some to her for their children but, sometimes, she does seem like she is vindictive. How does having him thrown in jail help him pay anything? The thing that bothers me the most is that the kids are caught in the middle of all their bickering. Thankfully they have never seen them in court.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

An apparent lie.

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

Myself: my fatigue and my fear are conspiring against me. I hate going to gas stations, but my tire needs air. It seems like such an onerous task, so here I sit as deflated as my front tire.

 

[therapybankrupt]

I am angry I have to wake up with flashbacks. One more reality to add to my list of abuse. One more abuser to add to my list of perverts.

 

[ms spock]

I am angry that I was treated so badly as a child that I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough. Though this is changing now. This dynamic has left me very vulnerable for most of my adult life.

 

[therapybankrupt]

I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough.

Ms Spock I understand the feeling. I have been able to remember this old tape recently. Its like getting straight A's on a report card and getting 1 check mark for talks to much. Punished terribly for. For me it puts it in perspective of why I feel this way as an adult. I now connect the two when I am reacting to the feeling of just not being quite enough! I pull myself through the thought faster. I hope you two can pinpoint an old tape. Hugs!