Chin Strapped
Platinum Member
Don't be angry, you realized something and that's a big step forward. And, it's a journey not a destination. As had been suggested, find something that helps you relax. Swimming great, any exercise where deep breathing is involved really helps. Yoga is super. I do Tai Chi myself. The idea is to find something the YOU like and will continue with.
I'll also mention that the more you delve into your problems the more problems there will be, at least at first. It does get better with time, better is the optimal word. Therapy gives you a tool box to help through the rough times as well as exploring those things that got you there in the first place. The idea is to keep at it.
I've neglected my ptsd since I got it, therapy sessions included (detached). I'm slowing getting through the material and forums on here and it's woke me up a bit. If I'm honest it has actually made me think more about everything and I fell a little deeper into a current low period! But it feels right.
Never really considered what I'm trying to achieve with therapy, but a tool box is the right answer. I'm battling with booze and pot, which is not good for marriage number 2 (I'm 28:oops:) because I am messed up from being near too many bombs! Makes me a little angry sometimes, but I am alive; just numb.
So it looks like it's going to have to be yoga or Morris dancing ;)