Can someone please help? I really need advice.
I moved here two years ago next month. I was planning on taking a job but then decided not to becuase I felt that work could make me too vulnerable and unsafe. I took a different job a few months later, but it didn't work out. I caught one of my coworkers reading my emails and was fired shortly after that. They were assholes about it. But what was worse was that, my symptoms were more difficult to control.
This is the first time I've really been alone. And year after year I was stalked. Finally I am not being stalked anymore but I guess I am afraid of people now and dread what will happen. I have so many built up issues that were never dealt with.
I am afraid of people and I am afraid of myself.
I am not working. I would prefer to do something like work for a theater company or work in a garden nursery. Something like that would suit me more. But I am afraid of being let down. I have become really sedentary. I don't exercise because it causes my anger to bubble over.
What should I do? I don't really want to be alone but I don't have any confidence right now. I feel threatened and as if anyone in the world can walk all over me.
For a while I was seeing a therapist. But it didn't work out. She just made me feel worse than ever. Where should I go from here.
Please don't advise me to workout or do yoga. That sort of advise benefits people in general.
I feel like, now that I am on my own. I don't even know myself. I am just so lost.
I moved here two years ago next month. I was planning on taking a job but then decided not to becuase I felt that work could make me too vulnerable and unsafe. I took a different job a few months later, but it didn't work out. I caught one of my coworkers reading my emails and was fired shortly after that. They were assholes about it. But what was worse was that, my symptoms were more difficult to control.
This is the first time I've really been alone. And year after year I was stalked. Finally I am not being stalked anymore but I guess I am afraid of people now and dread what will happen. I have so many built up issues that were never dealt with.
I am afraid of people and I am afraid of myself.
I am not working. I would prefer to do something like work for a theater company or work in a garden nursery. Something like that would suit me more. But I am afraid of being let down. I have become really sedentary. I don't exercise because it causes my anger to bubble over.
What should I do? I don't really want to be alone but I don't have any confidence right now. I feel threatened and as if anyone in the world can walk all over me.
For a while I was seeing a therapist. But it didn't work out. She just made me feel worse than ever. Where should I go from here.
Please don't advise me to workout or do yoga. That sort of advise benefits people in general.
I feel like, now that I am on my own. I don't even know myself. I am just so lost.
