When You Want To Just Rest...

[.Bubbles.]

I'm feeling drained at the moment. Yesterday I had to be in a very triggery place for hours. And tomorrow I have to do it again. And I have to be around a few people and try to hold it together. I managed it somehow when I was there. I cried a tiny bit when I first arrived, but then something kicked in and was like "ok, I have to get this done" and I burried the emotions. I came back where I'm living, came on chat here and was hyper for some reason. I didn't sleep until around 5am. But then I paid for it. I had a nightmare and woke up in a panic attack.

I've tried to think of ways to avoid having to go to this place. But I have to. It's one of those can't be avoided/ not going away situations. I'm wondering what I'm going to be like after another day of it. I guess my question is: how do you deal, when you want to lay down and rest, at a time you have to be the most productive?

 

[scout86]

but then something kicked in and was like "ok, I have to get this done"

Like that, pretty much.

I'm not really sure how the whole "shifting gears" thing works. Besides that, I honor the fact that I will need a break after it's over and TAKE a break. After it's over. During the event, if there's a chance to sneak away for a few moments of quiet, I do that too.

I'm of the opinion that I can handle anything for a finite amount of time. I remind myself that it's going to be a finite amount of time and focus on the mission at hand. I'd bet you can do this!

 

[KwanYingirl]

If the situation is looking bleak, and especially if I have to drive, I can take a Xanax. Once the edge is off, I can rally and get through whatever it is.

 

[Tanishq]

Lovely Jubbly, this is tough for you. It seems you are trying to find some space. Space where you can build courage to face bad incidents and go through it. Is this what you are looking for? Trying to understand to what kind of support you are looking for. I am sure you are trying to solve this.