Where Am I Going?

[Mercy]

OOPs. I didn't know you were home. You goal to be more active is a great one. Welcome home. Your family is adjusting too. You all will find a balance hopefully comfortable for all.

 

[Nicolette]

Glad to hear you are home Ian. If your wife wants to chat you have my details.

 

[Mercy]

Dear Ian,
I am wondering how things are going for you now?

A few random thoughts...

There is an old blood pressure medicine which proved not to be very effective for BP but it turns out to ease nightmares. I used to suffer with them, waking up in a sweaty panic, disoriented, not recognizing my own bedroom. Sometimes I could remember the nightmare and sometimes not. I take Prazosin at bedtime now and am almost nightmare free. Maybe, your GP could help with assessing whether this medicine would be appropriate for you.

I was wondering if there was a police job which was in the station house and did not involve dealing directly with very many people, maybe, computer background checks?

Wishing you well. Enjoy your boys. They are only young once and you are their only Dad. You could even ,on tough days, model resting as a good thing. I don't know their ages. If they are old enough to watch a movie unsupervised, you might even get a refreshing nap.

 

[Ian Vp]

Hi, been ofline for a while. Adjusting to being home, trying to cut down on valium. Still going weekly to Melbourne. Jobs options up here for me are only opperational, we dont have any support staff or similar. I will have to see what I am offered when I get to that. I went down to the Austin hospital to see my Psyciatrist which is only across the quadrangle from the inpatient unit. He increased my valium for the short term. No idea when I will get to do the PTSD course yet.
I have 5 yr old twins, a boy and girl and another boy who is 4. I will check out that medication. One of the medications they swapped for serequel is making my muscles ache and I feel tired all the time. Not bombed out and vague but bodily tired. Two Doctors said it was just my PTSD using up all my energy and another said it was a side affect of the new medication. Who knows.
I am practicing breathing techniques and other stuff I was taught in the hospital. I havent really gotten back in touch with my normal psycologist yet, I left a message but havent had a session with her since leaving hospital. Sleep is not my friend, it is when I have the least controll over what I think and dream and I always have nightmares. If I could I would never sleep but I know that is impossible. Thanks for the support.

 

[Ian Vp]

Glad to hear you are home Ian. If your wife wants to chat you have my details.

Thanks Nicolette, I still havent taken your card out of my wallet yet. I just dont seem to be able to get myself organised. I will pass on your card and I hope that she gives you a call. Thanks for the walk, it was nice to be able to talk to people and not have to explain wtf is going on in my head. I hope this message finds you well.

 

[revelry]

Ian,

Iv'e been off the grid for a while (stuck in an algebra class that seems to be consuming any all brain capacity that I have...lol)
but, I see that your home and you seemed pretty exicited about it, but your last post seems like there is some frustraion in your tone. Have you gotten anywhere with your psycologist??? I would think that when you left there, they would have set up some regular visits, to keep things in check for a while, until you get adjusted. I seems like they just kinda went ---'well, ok, here ya go, be free..' Maybe I'm wrong, I'm not there, so I really don't know all the details.

I'm so sorry that you still having problems sleeping, I'm sure that is probaly also adding to your body aches and general well being. When your tired, everything is worse. Try to pay attenetion to things that are different on the nights that you DO sleep, the events of the day.. Did you work out that day? Did you go out? Was it a calm day? Was it an emotional day??? Try to find out what different on those days, and maybe you can re-create it and hopefully it will have a positive outcome on your sleep. I can't promiss it'll work, but hey, when you're not sleeping well, anything is worth a shot :-)

-R