Where Is A Person Conscience?

[Deleted member 38644]

My father has betrayed me thinking I am unaware of it. How do a person sit in your face everyday with no conscious feel absolutely no guilt? he has so much money that's all he care about. He don't give a damn about me. He does stuff to hurt me if you paid him. he doesn't care about my education or life. our father and daughter relationship is so gone. he tells me what I do in life he's not interested in and I'm in law shit for school and he says law ain't paying him shit. He loves money. He flashes his check in my face. He basically thinks he owns me and because he spent some money to help me out he still feel like he should destroy me because that's his money he spent. He put me in bad situations purposely just so he can spend his money to get me out, just to say he did it

 

[Deleted member 38644]

How come a person who makes 60,000 + a year can look you in your face everyday and be ok with every bad thing he do without no remorse? I act like I don't know what he did behind my back when I was gone but he act like he's not worried about anything unless it's more money. He has no conscious. You can walk around this house suspecting he did something, then when he gets asked he responds no. I seen my dad hit women when I was young, put them out on backroads, and etc. He loans money left and right. When child protective services was involved when I was young all he cared about was his property and money. He kept repeating my situation is bullshit and he was worried about cps taking everything he has. When I was getting counseling I lied to them because I never trusted them. My father would tell me "I don't want that white woman over here". A few months ago my dad ranned over a dog while we was in the car and he kept going.

 

[Fadeaway]

Your dad may have sociopathic tendency's. It appears that he has low capacity for empathy. The ability to empathize with another living being is the source of having a conscious.

A word of advice, never become financially dependent on this man. If you already are, work to get out from it. He will never change and from reading your other posts he sees money as having power over others.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Idk what category to post this in. Im waiting on the day I leave but the father and daughter relationship I once had with my father is definitely gone. I left for college in August 2016. My dad won't talk to me face to face. He dont even wanna look at me. I can't even ask him anything because he drinks everyday now. he spends most of his time either coming home drunk or sleeping. I can ask him to bring back gas for the truck but not money. He doesn't stay up like he use to. As time moves forward he's doing stuff he hasn't done. He won't talk on the phone around me hardly. Im very aware of what he's been doing for almost 3 years behind my back. Normally he would fix on my truck or buy food for the house now he won't. Last night he asked me "you ain't cracking is you"? he won't tell me where he took his trucks. When he is out, he won't answer the phone for me. He won't answer no question I ask him. Its all progressively changing. he dont normally check the mailbox now he does first thing in the morning. He even left the hot water tank on. It's been on since yesterday. while I was away he helped cause harm to me. he tells me "he gone knock the shit out of me." After the police officer pulled him over to run his license last week and said what he said things been downhill more since. guilt can't stare me in the eye. we talk more when he's away from me such as work. when I try to tell him something about what happened to me, he becomes combative with me as if he knows something then remove everything more.

 

[J'qel]

It's pretty standard that someone who feels guilt at their actions feels uncomfortable meeting the eyes of a victim. Especially in the older male generation of "you look me in the eye and say that".

You *are* still getting out aren't you?

 

[Deleted member 38644]

It's pretty standard that someone who feels guilt at their actions feels uncomfortable meeting the eyes o...

Yessssss I'm packed...I gotta get some more stuff...first time ever getting on a plane lol

 

[Gs172003]

I'm not up to speed...did your dad do something to give you PTSD? Or is he an alcoholic jerk and you're running for the hills (as you should)

 

[Gs172003]

Nevermind I caught up. Im sorry for all you've dealt with.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

How can a person live their life showing no remorse or guilt? I know what my father did to me to help continue harm for me but this man lives day to day like he ain't did nothing. I show no signs of it at all that I know. I seen him leave women down on dirt roads real late at night or put them out the car. Even seen him push one down when I was young. I don't see how he can live with all of what he has done to people and animals with no remorse at all. If he knows you in a bad situation it doesn't matter he will still put you in danger with his mouth. He bought a blue nose pitbull for 200 dollars. I have to sneak and feed him twice a day sometimes. he complains about how much dog food cost him. He doesn't want me to give the dog enough dogfood. He wants me to give him at least 3 scoops of dog food out of a coffee mug. I still feed him twice a day because he needs to eat. I feed him in rhe evening and night time. I use to feed king morning, evening and night time. Now if I feed him two different periods of the day he say I'm feeding him too fast. he wants a big bag of dog food to last almost 2 months. im 23 years old and my life just getting started. I gotta be taught everything I didn't have a chance to learn that I needed to know. I promise myself when I leave I'm not looking back.

 

[Netsy]

How can a person live their life showing no remorse or guilt? I know what my father did to me to...

Dogs are our best friends in life, live for the present for today and remember that you are a human being also - look after yourself and remember each day is a gift from God to you. Noone else can take that away from you.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Thank you I'm just counting down my days

Dogs are our best friends in life, live for the present for today and remember that you are a human being...

 

[Finchlet2]

I was so ok screwed up when I had contact with my father. He just had to be present and my head and heart would go skitzo and it would take days sometimes weeks to figure out what the f*ck I was doing prior to his interruption of logical rational thought before action and the resulting light speed action rollercoaster attached to absolutely no track whatsoever resurfacing with further trauma yet again only this time having myself to blame. It's been a while since I Spoke to my father and although this helps me heal I can't ignore him Mich longer as my daughter is there. When i do get back in touch it will be with a solicitor and sticking to my own boundries and terms. I will not let him destroy my ability to b strong for the man I love and my beautifull babies. Running away and cutting contact was the best thing I ever did for myself