An anniversary is coming up in a couple of days. An incident that affected me in a way I didn't think possible, I had being trying my best to get myself killed for about 13 years (another story). I came to realise its not the governments that made the decisions to invade or kill there own people that suffer its the men who have to make the decision to pull the trigger, not only at that moment but in their memories, because its not soldier killing soldiers, it's civilians getting hurt and soldiers living with that above everything else.