Why Do I Feel So Down?

[nie]

I am really struggling right now. There is no reason for me to feel this way. I have a great husband, a wonderful baby daughter, a good job, a great church family, an outstanding nanny, etc., but I just feel depressed. I was sitting in a meeting this morning trying not to cry. Why was I almost crying - I am not sure. I do have some things that are weighing on me. I am having wrist surgery next month, I have to go back to the podiatrist next week, and I am exhausted. Shouldn't the good be more important than the bad? I hate feeling like this. I am in therapy once a week, and we talk, talk, talk, but I just don't feel happy anymore. Well, except for when I am at home with my daughter and husband. I guess I wish I could just be with them all of the time. The reality is, that I have to figure out how to function outside of the home. I came to work today, but I really didn't want to. It is just meetings today, but the students are back tomorrow. It is really tiring to put on the fake happy face for work, when inside I am falling apart.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Nie,

Having a new baby is a huge life changing event. Even the good stressors can have a negative impact on the PTSD symptoms. Plus a little one means sleep deprivation, and never mind the hormonal changes associated with child birth.

It will get brighter over time. Your doing the right thing by focusing on the good, but try to make sure you get some sleep and some down time.

Take care.
ITL