AlanTheBlaze
New Here
It's been a year since I moved to a different state to live with my bio mother and her boyfriend. Her boyfriend is now a father figure to me, and I absolutely hate my bio father and his wife for what they did to me and put me through. But I can't help but feel like I still love them... The thought that I will never see them again and they will always hate me hurts when I know that it shouldn't. I understand missing my half-brother (their biological child that I raised from a newborn to two years old and was basically my baby rather than theirs) and my full-brother (older than me by one year and disowned me because he didn't believe me when I told him that our father raped me). But why do I still love the people who hurt me and stole my childhood? I really need to understand this to move on and heal, and I'm not sure how to. If anyone has any ideas that might help, please please please tell me. I would appreciate it greatly. Thank you.
