Why is work so hard?

[Eagle3]

Thought I'd found the perfect job. Good pay, good benefits, 4 days off a week, full-time. Delivering packages for Amazon through a 3rd party company. 2 days, only 2 DAYS into training, and I had to quit. Climbing in and out of the van over 200 times a day was creating pain that apparently triggered every PTSD symptom I have. The muscles used are knotted, and won't relax. Fibro flare? In any case, I really had my heart set on this job, and I couldn't do it due to physical pain that triggered my PTSD so badly I was really ready to kill myself. Told my State-appointed vocational team and my therapist, but I'm really up a creek now. No income, no benefits, no being able to see my awesome therapist again or do the things that make me feel whole. I really hate this!!!! Now if I could just convince the Feds I'm really this disabled, I might be able to get some financial help, but I know the odds of that happening...

 

[blackemerald1]

Climbing in and out of the van over 200 times a day was creating pain that apparently triggered every PTSD symptom I have. The muscles used are knotted, and won't relax.

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I don't know your age but I can assure you that this type of activity is going to make a lot of your body ache for a while.

I'm sorry you quit. Possibly starting a gentle exercise regime before you began this work would have assisted.

It did sound like a great job.

 

[Eagle3]

I had finally been exercising again about a month before this job. Figured out what happened...the pain spots were PTSD triggers from a previous painful and traumatic experience, and it totally shocked my system into a PTSD cycle/spiral. When I actually calmed down and SAT WITH the pain, it wasn't THAT bad. Hurt, yes, debilitating, yes, but it just didn't hurt as badly as it did back then. The extreme pain was all memories of the past, and body-memories. First time I ever recognized that I still have trauma tucked into certain areas of my body. So, gotta move on to a job that doesn't trigger me so badly. This one, while good on paper, hit all my worst triggers and I don't have a way to work on those right now.