Sufferer Will i ever break this cage? ptsd adhd bpd ed ld

[freebird]

Hello there. I was diagnosed with ptsd, adhd, bpd, anorexia, and a learning disability 2 years ago. However I've been suffering for decades. I was raised in a cult and isolated by narcissistic family, so I struggle a bit with confidence to come out of the shell.

I have nightmares every night all related to my trauma, and am unable to properly function in the mornings. I have suicidal thoughts. I self-harm sometimes in either starvation, neglect or self mutilation. The future is very difficult to come to terms with because I don't think of myself being a person who deserves to live and have worth. I have had health problems due to trauma and abuse, and I can't handle living like this anymore. I have lost hope. I have lost everything except my DH. I have also risked everything just for basic safety and needs.:cry:

I am afraid. I struggle financially, and have gone against everything I was told for my own well-being and sanity. I am a danger to myself. I understand homelessness in that there is no place where I belong. I wonder if I will be homeless someday....

It is an impossible life. Will I ever break free from this cage?

 

[Deleted member 44579]

Hi @freebird... The cage does go with time... Self love..... Self respect... And therapy....

Is it possible to get some therapy... And meditation...
That's alot of mental health conditions to deal with and each one will Need to be helped.

I strongly recommend some

Support with groups.. Talking therapy... Whatever works and feels right for you.

I will take time... But please tell yourself positive thoughts.... Negative thoughts do nothing but stop you from being yourself... There not true.........

Big hugs and use this forum.. These people have been there and will offer support.... Take care

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Hi @freebird... The cage does go with time... Self love..... Self respect... And therap...

Medication........

I meant medication

 

[freebird]

Thank you for your caring kind words they truly mean the world! I am currently unable to get therapy but I am taking 5mg escitalopram. I take half because 10mg makes me woozy...I am supposed to take prazosin at night but the sleepiness lasts all day the next day. The 5mg is what's helping for now.
I am grateful I found this site last night and I feel like I can finally talk. I know this forum will help and I want to help encourage others as well:hug:

 

[trying2movefwd]

Welcome and it can get better.