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As you will know from my Chit Chat thread I am awaiting kidney surgery along with having what seems to be an endometriosis party including in my bladder. The extent of all will only be able to be evaluated by surgery.

Tomorrow I have to go and have an enometriosis ultrasound. I only found out today it will be renal. :eek: And it will not be under sedation like the colonoscopy I have a few years ago when they were beginning to try and nut out what is still medically wrong.

The issue I have is I was anally raped by a Chiropractor........... I hope I will be ok. I was until I found out the method of examination today. I think I can do this and I even told Anthony I could go by myself..... that was before finding out the specifics today.

I have to have this done......... grant me the strength not to freak out........please! :whistling:
 
Nicolette... sending you thought bombs... peace, calm, courage, and that the people around you treat you with caring and compassion.

If you need to... give yourself permission to revisit the decision to have Anthony go with you. There's nothing wrong with needing or wanting the support from a loved one, but if you do choose to go alone... frame it up as a challenge. It helps me to be braver than I'm inclined to think or feel I am if I frame it as a challenge... with a set time for completion. I can focus if need be on the clock or calendar... and remind myself that whatever I'm feeling or thinking, it's not "forever"... it's just for a time.

I'll be silently supporting you today.
 
((((((NICOLETTE))))))

Can they give you minor sedation even if they cannot give you heavy stuff?

You are very brave to be going through with it and I know you can get through!! Try to think of all the people who will be caring for you and praying. You are surrounded with warn thoughts and love!!:)
 
((((Nicolette))))

Sweetheart, you can do this. It is another hurdle for you to clamber over, but you have a lot of people to support you, sending cyber hugs and as Alba said, you can always rethink taking Anthony with you.

Is it possible for you to listen to music or an audio book whilst they do the procedure? Something to distract you. Also something to hold, to help keep you grounded, I use a moss agate turtle. It doesn't matter what it is, it just gives you something to focus on. Finally some essential oil, I like lemon, lavender or bergamot, I'm sure Amethist will know what is good. A little on a tissue to help you breathe through it.

You know how to come through this and the techniques to use. Breathe, focus on a safe place and breathe again.

I will light a candle and think of you.
 
Tomorrow I have to go and have an enometriosis ultrasound. I only found out today it will be renal.

Sorry if I am being thick here, but my experience of a renal ultrasound is that it is NOT invasive. Just means the place they are lookng at is the kidneys and renal tract - not that they are entering you anywhere at all.

Hope this is reassuring for you and that it is not nearly as unpleasant or triggering as you fear.

Sending you lots of luck - but you won't need it :)
 
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