I always seem to end up doing this, people decide to go for a 'proper' night out and I am in a pub after work and it sounds like a great idea. I manage to completely forget that drunk me = flashbacks and clubs = panic attacks and anyone hitting on me = flashbacks.
I sometimes feel like part of me works against me completely, before I know it i've signed up to some insane night out, I am stuck in the city with no way home that isn't over £100 and have literally no escape. BTW that is another flashback issue. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF!?
Okay sure I got out fine, but there has to be a limit where I remember I can no longer do these things and it is NOT good for my sanity.
... this turned into a rant, but like how do I remind myself this is even an issue... As soon the end of the day hits it sounds like a fantastic idea and I just go ahead deciding it will be 'fun' how freaking stupid am I?! *sighs*.
I sometimes feel like part of me works against me completely, before I know it i've signed up to some insane night out, I am stuck in the city with no way home that isn't over £100 and have literally no escape. BTW that is another flashback issue. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF!?
Okay sure I got out fine, but there has to be a limit where I remember I can no longer do these things and it is NOT good for my sanity.
... this turned into a rant, but like how do I remind myself this is even an issue... As soon the end of the day hits it sounds like a fantastic idea and I just go ahead deciding it will be 'fun' how freaking stupid am I?! *sighs*.
