@Changing4Best And with your faith, you will find a way that works for you. There, to me, is a huge difference between what fits our personal life and dogma. The fact you want to forgive, eventually, maybe that's all you need to get started. You do get to say No or not yet. If you are manipulated into forgiveness it's really not forgiveness. So take your time and figure out what is right for you. Your God will understand and help you with this.