Working Out Meds Issues And Suicidal Thought Are Everywhere

[nimkekaa]

I have recently has some severe nerve damage from a complication from a hip replacement. The meds they have been putting me on then off are having a severe effect on my abilities to fight my suicidal thoughts. I know some of these meds can have issues in regards to suicidal thinking but Im feeling overwhelmed. Between the pain and the meds Im struggling with ways to fight back the suicidal thought.

 

[joeylittle]

Between the pain and the meds Im struggling with ways to fight back the suicidal thought.

Have you been able to tell your doctor about this?

What else do you do for distraction when you are having suicidal thoughts? You might just need to give yourself some extra choices when it comes to turning your mind away from those thoughts. And remember, surgery is a pretty traumatic event for the body, even when everything goes normally. Depending on how recent your operation was, you might also be fighting that fatigue as well.

it doesn't make it easier to know that, but sometimes it helps to remember that you've got other stressors going on as well, and you're really doing the best you can for right now, and things will change.

 

[nimkekaa]

Thanks joeylittle. I havent told the Dr this but I have an appointment Tuesday for that reason.
I actually have a lot of other stressors going on besides my surgery and the pain from the nerve damage. I have 4 children. 2 we adopted and they have FAS. So kids with Special needs and Christmas coming and I am useless to help financially.

I do read and it helps. I haven't been going outside too much cause I still need a walker or cane and partly because my hubby worries about me.

I know Im doing the best I can right now and can give myself a break that way. Im just finding it hard to believe things will ever change. MY daughter's brains will not get better and my nerve pain and partial foot paralysis may never get better, it seems hopless.

 

[joeylittle]

@nimkekaa , I'm sorry - that's a whole lot on your plate. There's definitely no easy "it gets better" message here. Sometimes, even though it's ridiculously hard, we just need to grit teeth and let the time pass by and see what is different a month from now, a year from now. Your daughters brains won't get better, but there are good memories yet to be made, along with the struggle and pain. Or - if nothing else - I always tell myself I don't know the future.

You might try adding crosswords or puzzles, while you're laid up. Maybe take up knitting? I think part of dealing with surgery recovery is just making sure that when you are tired of doing the thing you can do most of the time to keep your mind occupied, you have a few more options lined up. There will still be days when none of its any good, but just keeping focused on something helps a ton with suicidal thinking.

Sending you lots of good thoughts.

 

[nimkekaa]

Thanks so much for sending good thoughts.

 

[nimkekaa]

Well I felt better for a few days but now I feel myself slipping down that lonely slope.

Tonight my hubby is on nights again and I just want someone to talk to. I called a couple people with no answer. I hate to bother people and what do you say? Hey I'm loney lets chat?

I know I need to do something so that I dont get back to that place of wanting to end things but with my surgery recovery I really am useless. I need a purpose. Maybe I just need to go to sleep and start fresh tomorrow. Although I'm getting tired of sleeping too.

What do you hold on to when you don't feel like you have a purpose? When my kids were little they needed me. Now not so much. I just feel like a burden to my hubby and kids.

Now I know it is time for bed. Sometimes writing things out gets things off my mind. Tonight its getting me down.

No worries though as Im not giving up yet. Just trying to work through the feelings.

Night