Pinkgiraffe
New Here
Hi,
I joined this site after reading various discussion pages about therapy and dissociation which I have found useful.
I'm in my early twenties and live with the most amazing adoptive parents and my baby brother, he is not yet a year old and has helped me so much more than he can ever realise and understand.
I was abused by my biological parents from 18 months old, physically and mentally, and they allowed family friends to sexual abuse. I was abused until I was 19. The sexual abuse was quite extreme, as I was rented by adults who wanted to play out their fantasies of torture and abuse on a child. My biological parents accepted money from the people who organised it all.
I've had some one to one therapy before, though this stopped when the therapist saw me in a regressed dissociated state as she had no clue how to help. I also did some art therapy which was fun and it was so reassuring to be around other survivors. I'm currently waiting for therapy again, as I have spent the last 18 months in the NHS system and finally found a charity that specialises in counselling for survivors of childhood abuse. I feel more ready than ever before for this, but am also completely freaking out.
I am currently starting the process of severing all ties with the biological parents (or biohazards, as I refer to them), legally changing my name, getting a new phone number, email address and hopefully new home address. It is all rather daunting and overwhelming and I'm feeling quite alone with this, but I hope this community will make me feel less alone and help me through it all.
MN xx
I joined this site after reading various discussion pages about therapy and dissociation which I have found useful.
I'm in my early twenties and live with the most amazing adoptive parents and my baby brother, he is not yet a year old and has helped me so much more than he can ever realise and understand.
I was abused by my biological parents from 18 months old, physically and mentally, and they allowed family friends to sexual abuse. I was abused until I was 19. The sexual abuse was quite extreme, as I was rented by adults who wanted to play out their fantasies of torture and abuse on a child. My biological parents accepted money from the people who organised it all.
I've had some one to one therapy before, though this stopped when the therapist saw me in a regressed dissociated state as she had no clue how to help. I also did some art therapy which was fun and it was so reassuring to be around other survivors. I'm currently waiting for therapy again, as I have spent the last 18 months in the NHS system and finally found a charity that specialises in counselling for survivors of childhood abuse. I feel more ready than ever before for this, but am also completely freaking out.
I am currently starting the process of severing all ties with the biological parents (or biohazards, as I refer to them), legally changing my name, getting a new phone number, email address and hopefully new home address. It is all rather daunting and overwhelming and I'm feeling quite alone with this, but I hope this community will make me feel less alone and help me through it all.
MN xx
