Worst Days, What Does Your Day/day Suffering Look Like

[heidi]

What do you do/what do you look like when you have these days? Do you appear visibly distressed? Do people around you know?

Also how often on a weekly or monthly basis do you have the worst days? Is it concerning for those around you? Is it obvious?

 

[I wish]

You wouldn't be able to tell that I have a care in the world by looking at me. Part of how I coped in the beginning was by paying excessive attention to my appearance. It was a way to feel in control, hide my pain and to be ready for anything 24/7.

If I didn't keep myself perfectly groomed I'd feel vulnerable and weak. On my worst days I just want to isolate myself and I wish I was dead.

I'm in a funk right now but only my husband notices. I don't socialize unless I have to.
I can't say how often I have my worst days..it used to be maybe every 3 months but I feel like now its every other day.

I've been away for 3 months to care for a family member and I'm finding it hard to go back to my regular life.

I was looking forward to getting a fresh start and now that I'm back, all I see is how my life sucks.

 

[Barberian]

Worst day(s)? I'm a madman. How often do I have one of "those" days, varies from month to month.

 

[Kas_Can_Fly]

Worst days: Under the covers in a ball in the corner of my bed shaking, possibly crying if I am able. Being scared having a constant cycle of migraine, flashback, sleep not in any specific order but typically at least one flashback per migraine. No eating. No drinking. No TV. No nothing. Just wishing that it was all over, dreaming that I had the guts to actually kill myself. A worst day is never just one day it is always a minimum of two, most regularly 3-4 and has gone on for 9 before. In that time I do drink and eat very little and only what is brought to me. I want to scream but I'm too scared. I want to ask for help but I don't know how. So I just struggle and hope that either I will die or it will come to some kind of end eventually.