Would This Be Ptsd Or Grief?

[MoriMermaid]

@J'qel Well, I've been wanting to ask about something that I think was abuse and that people have said was abuse, but I don't know now.

As for the feeling of everything being slow, I really feel that it has since my friend got sick. I just want to sit there and slowly watch the world with him, that's it. Life blurs sometimes, doesn't it? I'm hoping that I can get some relief soon. :)

 

[J'qel]

By all means. I mean sometimes as participants, we can find it hard to tell when it is or isn't abuse, and getting a third person involved can help.

Especially if it was sexual in nature, double that if it was done by someone you cared about (most assaults are).

I still grapple with some of the assaults I was subjected to because I was vulnerable at the time and afraid. That doesn't mean I consented. That doesn't mean it's okay. It's still hard to wrap my head around some times, because these were people who got me out of my physically abusive home after I was nearly strangled. They saved me... but....It's hard to think about.

Life can be hard and confusing and frightening. The best we can do is try to muddle our way through keeping as much of ourselves intact as we can as we go.

 

[MoriMermaid]

I don't really like to talk about what happened with me yet. The times I have I've been asked pretty distressing questions about it or haven't been understood. I also still have trouble with not feeling safe, even with the people who helped me. A lot of unanswered questions, for sure.

 

[J'qel]

I hope that your new therapist can help you hon. If not remember, there are a lot of them out there, and among them is one who's right for you. :)