That's hilarious!
Um, I don't think I would take it. I need my memories. My trauma happened when I was 11-14, and I didn't know that I was traumatized- didn't get the flashbacks until three years later. I refer to the ages of 14-17 as the "blank years" I was traumatized, I had anger, I was dissociating and self-harming- but I din't know why, and it was the scariest thing ever. Not knowing why I feel bad a lot of the time is worse than knowing why I feel bad all of the time. To have a reason, a story, an explanation for the way I am now- it just makes a lot of sense now. Yeah, I still feel bad, but now I know that it's not REALLY all of my fault, sure I could have tried to be good during my trauma, but that wouldn't have stopped my abuse.
In short, to wash away my memories would be to wash away my abusers, and my strength to overcome them. Yes, I still live with their words and actions daily, but I'm no longer ignorant to the fact that the abuse DID happen, and that it WAS abuse and I WAS manipulated, and that it wasn't normal for every kid. I overcame what I did. It made me stronger. Yes I may feel broken at times, but I am strong. I survived. To simply forget my trauma would be to forget that I can overcome things, simple things, and complex things- yes, they're still being worked on, but they'll be overcome with the correct support.
We are who we are because we survived what we did. Be proud that you survived what you did. It is the fault of the abusers, not the abused. And that's what our memories are there to remind us of.
