You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Abstract]

And you can't do anything but stare at her and say you guess so because you just can't remember.

Hi Blackbird,
If you feel inclined would you say more? It might touch on something that interferes with therapy for me.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Hi Blackbird,
If you feel inclined would you say more?

I had remembered a traumatic incident and told her about it in a session. A few days later as I was reflecting on it I remembered more details that were very significant. So when I saw her yesterday I told her what else I remembered. She asked me why I hadn't told her that part before and she asked me if I had blocked it. I told her I must have because I hadn't remembered it when I first told her. I had no reason to not tell her other than it was blocked or suppressed. It's a really big deal detail too.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When someone is trying to strike up a general conversation with you and all you can do is get frustrated and think "oh my gosh will you just stop talking?". But you don't say it and you smile and nod because if you did speak you probably would just end up snapping at them.

 

[Changing4Best]

When someone is trying to strike up a general conversation with you and all you can do is get frustrated and think "oh my gosh will you just stop talking?".

I had this happen to me tonight, but at least something did come to light about another person talking down to us that hurt both of our feelings. Maybe that realization was meant to be, even though his endless chatter was annoying, at least I got something out of it!

 

[Leah123]

When driving dissociated makes the road feel like a video game grid instead of real life. I am grateful for a good autopilot, but I get nervous sometimes too.

 

[tacit]

You know you have PTSD when
- you can't think properly because the house is a mess
- when you're parked in the middle of an intersection telling off the driver in front of you, that is just sitting there at the lights and waving them to go so you can make your turn...only to look up & realise that you've ran a red light

 

[KatB]

When you can't point out what you are feeling or thinking because your mind is so overwhelmed and tired...

When your appetite changes throughout the day due to meds/external stressors...

When you feel like you're in a daze and are very confused as to where you are or where you are going...

When you cannot think of what to write anymore...

When you are seeing colors and you can't explain it well to others...

 

[Changing4Best]

When you find yourself at a red light, and have no idea how you got there, where you are or where you are going. Total blankout! So you make a right turn, because some driver is honking behind you....

 

[rainy_daze]

You cry for two hours, and don't feel better :(

Your partner figures out he gives you the most frights (also known as screaming or jumping or dropping what I'm holding) when you are in the kitchen. You find this interesting, because you've never thought about it before. Then you realise that PTSD stress cup must overflow or boil over when you're cooking or cleaning. Hmmm. You think about it more and internally and idiotically beat yourself up for not being self-aware :facepalm:

You find a couple of threads on this forum absolutely hysterical, yet someone without PTSD wouldn't understand why you were in tears of laughter.

You are consciously working on yourself and healing in order to manage this nasty set of reactions to indescribably unfair event(s) in your past so you can have a more enjoyable life that you deserve :tup:. :hug: We're a brave bunch I reckon.

 

[Hashi]

rainy_daze, the kitchen used to be the worst place for me when my startle reflex was bad. I think it's because in the kitchen I'm more distracted, I'm often not facing the door, and there's usually noise going on so I'm less likely to hear anyone approaching.

I used to share a flat with three others and the kitchen had two doors leading into it, from different rooms. I used to jump so badly that whatever I was holding would hit the ceiling.

 

[Changing4Best]

Your psychiatrist told you that playing Scrabble helps with memory loss. SO you play it, but along with helping you to recall times when you heard or used these words, the words can also trigger you. But thankfully that last does not happen often enough to outweigh the benefits, so you play a game every day or so with yourself by being both players. (no one else to play it with).

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you sleep 6-7 hours and you still wake up tired. Thanks nightmares :shifty:.