You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

...spend 2 hours having every possible permutation of a phone call in your head.
...liquid courage / chemical distance / half a pack of cigarettes later
...place phone call.
...stutter through it for 2 minutes
...OMFG thank gawd it's done hang up
...chain smoke the other half a pack
...go for a run.

Yeah. 4.5 hours to make a 2 minute call? Not bad. :hilarious: :cool: :smug: :O_o: :facepalm: :roflmao:

Nah. No anxiety here. None.

 

[ladee]

When it takes forever to learn good healthy boundaries, being clear on what is acceptable and what isn't in my own view... and not caring what others think or feel about my decisions. Hard worked for growth. PTSD doesn't always win.
When you have grown enough to still have compassion and empathy for others without having to be in their circle. Yet still wish them well and hoping for growth and recovery for them.

 

[Ronin]

When you give up on calls you don't want to make.

Instead you visit those dipshits in person.

... Oh wait. That's also not what I do with that.
... Hit reverse again. What was I supposed to do with it?
... Right. Don't engage. Bajeez.

You're thoroughly not happy calls are now also on your at-odds-with list.
Nope, not going there. Back to comfort zone. Comfoort, where did you go?

 

[Ronin]

Your idea of being diplomatic, gentle and subtle is saying f*ck in Japanese.

 

[St.Maybe]

when your partner gives you a sticker for not crying in your sleep last night, and you get excited because STICKER.

when you do want to talk about it but it's been two hours already and you have said virtually nothing.

when you share something difficult that took you hours to get out and they ask you when you're going to tell them what's really going on.

when clarity to you is cryptic vague frustration-making to them.

 

[ladee]

Everything @St.Maybe just said !!!! Especially the last one.. great post !!!

 

[Ronin]

You remember you were told to not stay quiet, because that way really lies madness.

You have no idea how to apologize for the shitposting you're doing as a casual talk though. At least you have the smokes.

Oh. Right. Not smoking. Too sick to. f*ckit. :rolleyes:

 

[ladee]

When your forum support peers leave loving messages on your profile page, and you think... Oh my , I must have written something somewhere to have them concerned , and can not remember what you wrote or where !!

 

[Ronin]

Naw, just caring for a beautiful and compassionate soul you are, @ladee. :)

 

[ladee]

Awww Thank you @Cashew... that put the biggest smile on my face... I appreciate you from my heart !!!

 

[Chincho]

When you feel you need a "vacation" from therapy after 5 years. So you tell your therapist and she agrees. And now you feel all alone and abandoned by said therapist!

 

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