You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Deleted member 37085]

When I feel like a fish out of water while trying to be coherent while trying to live in the present;
Because living in the present is new and uncharted territory and scary a lot of times;
Learning how to live in the present and having no earthly idea how except one moment @ a time;
Allowing people in a little, but still very apprehensive and wanting to go very slowly; Aware that I have wacky, disconnected thoughts & even wacky, disconnected feelings & saying to self hey! those were wacky, zany disjointed thoughts
without beating self to death over same, and then mentally, emotionally not going off deep end because I had wacky, zane thoughts, feelings. Progress not perfection fo sho.

 

[Anrish]

When private invitations make you extremely nervous. Work is still safe.

 

[Ronin]

And when you reclaim life by private invitations, because work's been unsafe all too long.

That's people & mutual trust.

& When you say the 'I don't trust me, can I leave for today' and are surprised some more, because they didn't want you to leave. 'You crazy?'... Yep, and yep. Me crazy. With a crazy good tea for comfort, apparently.

 

[Ronin]

When you seriously adore a PTSD forum for helping you parse out what's what.

This PTSD. This different disorder. This a character thing. This just a person thing. This a circumstances thing.
Whole lot of new mental boxes to fit things into.

 

[Friday]

When 'raise hell' & 'unleash hell' have two wildly different meanings.

Both comforting.

 

[Friday]

This PTSD. This different disorder. This a character thing. This just a person thing. This a circumstances thing.
Whole lot of new mental boxes to fit things into.

So very much, this.

A whole pallet of colours to paint with. :sneaky:

 

[Ronin]

'raise hell' & 'unleash hell' have two wildly different meanings.

Raise hell as in supporting life & upholding order, stirring up mess to right things,
Unleash hell as righting already messed up things, fixing the f*cking chaos no matter what it takes, ending the sonofabitch of a situation along with a few evil motherf*ckers responsible for it?

... Cough, fine, I'm done comparing meanings as thinking aloud, I promise! :D Just for now. Curiosity killed a ronin.

 

[ladee]

When you get let go at your job, and you know it's a GOOD thing..... another path to venture down with surprises along the way.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

when you gift someone, and they pay you money for gift!@#$%^&@??? And then I cry alone because it spoiled the giving? WT?

 

[Anrish]

When you talk about your problems with people and they always find some "normal" explanation that doesn't fit for you but you cannot talk back because you're just tired of having to explain yourself all the time.

 

[Friday]

When you spend several weeks convincing yourself you don't have PTSD, because...

...but you still fit all the stupid damn criteria, treatments work, and sigh. Motherf*cking goddamn I'm fine. <<< Really? How's that working out for ya? >>> STFU Self. Doing the work, doing the work, bite me. I don't have to be f*cking cheerful about it to do it.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

When you spend several weeks convincing yourself you don't have PTSD, because...

...but you still fit...

LOL! OMGosh! Feeling it...thanks.