You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Anrish]

When you feel tired and tense at the same time. ...and are used to it.

 

[HypnoticallyChaotic]

...When you feel lucky and grateful when you can go out in public and not have any anxiety attacks.

 

[Nighthawk]

Your constantlyoverwhelemed and feel like your dying. Then wonder why arn't you dead yet.

 

[Anrish]

When you don't know how to handle a conversation without a specific goal.

 

[Ronin]

When you google basics like how to hold a spoon because you keep thinking you're doing it wrong. Along with everything else, that goddamn spoon breaks the camel's back.

When... scrollback. Right. Administrative schtuff ahead & Not Coping. Expectable reaction to expectable situations. Moving through. But you can't move. So through time it is.

When you decide you'll go with 'pick a hero, be that hero' because thinking of goals as if for someone else and someone you can remotely stand still cuts through no puedo dissociation.

 

[Rosewater]

When you can't find a small enough hole to crawl into.

 

[HypnoticallyChaotic]

...When you manage to get past your anxiety enough to get out to the library, and once you're there the library is suddenly a very loud place to be... I love the study rooms. They're nice and quiet.

 

[Ronin]

When .... nevermind, hii abusers, you're speeding my healing very literally. I'll f*cking outlive you /and/ bury you. Outliving first.

 

[Friday]

...when you start to write a post, but it's too close to home so you leave it as a draft. Walk away. Chill. Come back to it a bit later -okay, maybe enough headspace to finish it- and OMFG flooding relief. Draft. has. been. deleted. Yes!!! <insert happy dance here> Guess I wrote that longer ago than I thought!

Note to self. Might should prolly come back to that topic. But not right now!!! :hilarious:

 

[Friday]

....when people think there's information you "should" know... So they tell you, anyways.

And then are shocked when you blow the f*ck up at them, or pass the hell out for the next 3 weeks. Yeah. That's. Why. I. Said. Do. Not. Talk. To. Me. About. XYZ. Either ever, or unless I bring it up, or without warning.

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...When I say I cannot handle something, or cannot think about something? It doesn't mean that I don't want to. It means I can't.

 

[Ronin]

... when you're too terrified people might relate and make you feel human you make things the shortest you can

... and they relate to those short snippets anyway comes as a surprise :cautious::wideeyed:

 

[Anrish]

@Cashew: I'm so with you in relating people...but I would love to relate with you. :hug:

When you don't get the meaning of the word "fun"...and have to discuss it with people.

When you're used to function and are overwhelmed when you have time for yourself and everyone says "Do what's fun for you"...