Death I Accidentally Stepped On A Little Toad And Now I'm Very Sad...

[Beemo3780]

My apartment complex is surrounded by 3 huge man made lakes that separate each of the buildings. It's pretty humid where I live to begin with because we are next to a major river and close to the ocean, so that brings out a lot of critters in the summer. I've always loved catching things as a kid, and have kept reptiles and amphibians as pets my entire life (I currently have a bearded dragon that I've had for about 13 years now). Currently, there's been a huge breeding season for frogs and toads, and they are everywhere outside. (I've been picking them up and letting them go whenever I see them.)

Last night, it was my husband's birthday and it was dark and we were walking back to our building from the car after being out, and I stepped on something and felt a crunch under my foot. It was a little toad. I hadn't seen anything, and normal I'm the one warning my husband where they are so he doesn't step on them by accident. It was dead. And I feel really, really, really terrible. I started crying almost immediately, and now I'm just really sad. My husband tried consoling me saying that there's a million more out there, and they should know to move out of the way when they see a foot. But all I keep thinking was that he had a huge family, and how scared the poor thing was before I stepped on it.

It's probably ridiculous, but I still feel so awful. :(

 

[ladee]

I feel the same way about things like this. So cry and greive and be on the lookout for the little critters when outside at night. Gentle hugs!

 

[Silver.]

You have every right to feel badly, and it's not ridiculous. I have lived up in deer/turkey country my whole life and still feel awful even if it wasn't me that was involved in its death. (side of the road and such)
*sending you positive thoughts*

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

 

[Freedomfighter]

My apartment complex is surrounded by 3 huge man made lakes that separate each of the buildings. It'...

Wondering, do you guys think these kind of emotions are magnified by PTSD? I have the same reactions by the way, almost lost it when hitting animals on the road, horrible.
I was weeding the other day and a grasshopper got caught under my gloves and got hurt. I felt awful about that too, then felt silly since it was just a grasshopper.

 

[Gs172003]

I cover or close my eyes when it involves a car. It's automatic. Even when I'm driving. Not good. I have to work on that.